Wheel of Choices

I went to a church yesterday as invited by Jane. I was deciding hard whether to be attached. It was really hard. I don't know. I think some people would say I'm giving excuses not to go to church. But except my church in hometown, I don't like any other church. I don't think I'm finding excuses for myself.

Every time I go to a new church, I will compare it with my own church. Of course it will never feel the same but at least I want it to hit close. Hmm, so when I couldn't find a suitable one, I decided to stop trying. I thought, as long as God is in my heart, what's the big deal? So of course again, my parents beg so badly to differ.

So I went yesterday, the church wasn't so bad, the singing session- the part I like best was great, the pianist even more awesome. I think I'll need time to adapt, it's a new environment. All youths; honestly, I don't like being with so many people my age. I just can't get along with them. I know it's my problem.

Well, I've made the 1st move, I'm joining CF as well.

I'm a very slow progressor, I'm not a fan of changes, unless I'm convinced it's for the much greater good.

Lastly, just want to share a song that means a lot. Love God, guys.

We Were The Reason

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn

Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find

But we never realized a baby born one blessed night

Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

*We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
All because of love
All because of love

*Chorus

I finally found the reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him (every part to Him)
And all that I do every word that I say (you know I’ll be saying)
I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him (every thing for Him)

We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give (all that he could give all)
To show us the reason to live

#He is the reason to live
(don’t you know do you know the reason
that he came, oh he came to save us
when he gave his life for us) he suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave everything (everything that He had He gave)
To show us the reason to live

*chorus + # together
Don’t know how I could thank Jesus all that he had all..
*chorus + # together

First Full of Determination Fasting

At this very moment, my stomach is slightly growling & my will of iron is melting. I am watching Open Season 2...mr weenie is seduced by the bone cookies left as a trail to lead him back to his master. "I'm so weak." he say as he is eating those cookies one by one & so he has returned & is trapped again. Can't help thinking that I might be like him in a couple more hours, perhaps. So now I'm at the scene where Boog is very hungry & eating those chocolates.

& here I am, in the commitment of a big plan - 1 day fasting, to clear out my body toxic, as proposed by Zaza. I still have exactly 12 hours & 37 minutes. & I think I'm still doing a pretty good job while Zaza is out in the evil world, facing much greater temptations in Tropicana. & she's walking, using up her energy. Oh no, is she going to be hungrier?!!! I admit my self control is very low. As a food lover like me, what can I do best during this period? Imagining about good food of course!!! All those japanese katsu set, spaghetti carbonara, steaks, kueh teow, dim sum, new york fish & chips, takoyaki, green tea ice cream with red bean~

Like Elliot says, this is a good character-building moment. (I'm relating everything to the cartoon now.)

Well, like Elliot & Mr Weenie say, again, "I'm strong." *slap* "With conviction!" "I'm strong!!"

"Carbonara!!" (screaming inside)

Belated Tagged Post

1. What is the most important thing in your life?
Family.

2. What is the last thing you bought with your own money?
Mp4, I guess. Or bag.

3. Where do you wish to be married?
Church. Historical nice classy church with coloured glass windows.
A garden will be nice too.

4. How old do you think you will get permanently owned by your lover?
Never had in mind an exact number.

5. Are you in love?
Yuppy. With everything.

6. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner at?
Can’t remember. I eat dinner every day.

7. Name the latest book you bought?
We could **** you, Mr Birch.

8. What's your full name?
Erm, is this necessary?

9. Do you prefer mother or father?
Both. *ehem, really.*

10. Name a person that you really wish to meet in your life.
Some China emperors, some Kings of England, some Pharaohs, some Greek princesses.

11. Christina or Britney?
Christina. Couldn’t take bald head.

12. Do you do your own laundry?
Yes, with the washing machine.

13. The most exciting place you want to go.
Places with nice food & clothes & footwear & bags & accessories….

14. Hugs or kisses?
Depends on whom.

15. Five things about the person that tagged you.
TJC~hmm, proscratinator (like me), loves food, slumber, crazily thin, reader.

16. Eight things you are passionate about.
Movies, food, music, philosophy, sociology, religion, psychology, sceneries.
Plus 1: The future. Meet the Robinsons.

17. Eight books I have read recently.
The Return – K.S. Maniam
We could **** you, Mr Birch – Kee Thuan Chye
The Cord –
Spirit of the Keris – Authors
Joke book.
*Sorry, can’t hit the quota.

18. Eight songs that I have been listening to over and over again.Lately?
祢的爱, 最珍贵的角落, I'm So In Love With You, Little Wonders, 其实我不快乐, 专爱, 光明之子, 喜乐泉源.

19. Eight things I learned this year.
a. I'm always homesick.
b. Mosquitoes pollinate.
c. Ants back home & ants in PJ are different. Both outlook & behaviour. Wonder which ones are the more evolved. Guessing PJ.
d. I’ll cry watching cartoons, instead of The Notebook, The Most Beautiful 7th day.
e. I prefer poems freaking more than short stories.
f. People don’t like me.
g. I’m Dororo.
h. I don’t mind if no one understands me.

Another bunch of questions
1. Do you have secrets?
Por favor, claro!!

2. Would you fall in love with someone younger than you?
Never tried before. But I did dated one.

3. Do you enjoy going to college?
Nothing special.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
I will travel around the world, eat all the nice food, buy everything I like.

5. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved.

6. Will you fall in love with your friend?
No, at least never happened before. But the future is full of uncertainty.

7. List five favourite songs (for now):
喜乐泉源, 专爱, Hey Whatever, Forever Love acapella, Little Wonders.

8. If the person you like is already attached, what will you do?
Give up. Won’t like it if I ruin others’ relationship. I heard “Karma is a bitch.” & I don’t like bitches.

9. List five favourite TV shows.
Heroes, Gossip Girl, Knight Rider, Everybody Loves Raymond, Malcolm in the Middle. But of course, I like more than five.

10. Do you have any regrets?
Quoting TJC, who doesn’t?

11. Would you be the person you are if you are reborn?
Same identity, same face, better nose, lesser moles, better characteristics. & taller. & tougher.

12. What do you want most at the moment?
Celebrating X’mas!!

13. What kind of person do you think the person that tagged you is?
Bearing with her sarcasm & how she picks on me all the time. Still very bearable but hey, TJC, that doesn’t mean you can poke me like nobody's business ok.

14. Would you rather be single but rich, or married but poor?
Single but rich. *think deep, guys*

15. What is your favourite colour?
Brown. Earth colours.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
If the person is worth it.

17. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, which one would you choose?
It won’t happen.

18. What are the top five bands that you listen to or love?
I don’t listen to bands much.

19. Name three things that you would like to do but never able to.
a. Kill those I hate.
b. Eat garlic & onion.
c. Go on a plane, ship or long distance car ride without taking travel sickness pills.

20. Tagging:
Anyone who wants to do this.

*This is supposed to be a 2008 post.

Retrieving...

I'm back.....after so many months...ever since the last sem break, I got demotivated again...
Let me do some update...last year christmas was fun & trembling my heart as usual...
Seeing my sister dancing & singing choir on stage made me felt...she's a big girl now..
Doing what I've been doing for God when I hadn't come here to study...she was so pretty & cute that night...
I felt sweet & relieved...just feel great to be home...& love you a lot, sis...
after X'mas, of course it's the annual year end thanksgiving dinner in church...
Always looking forward to this, *ahem* not because of the food...I had to do the slides last night...
Key in all the procedures...those adults were so irresponsible...the slide projecting was a mess...I was immensely angry at the moment, no thanks to my brother's splendid annoyance beside me...saying I wasn't good & all...
but then, my mood switched back...there was game session, I like sharing session the most...
Mum & dad went up, giving thanks for everything God blessed us with that year...
& they stayed in church for the new year countdown...it's their 1st time...^^
Then it's time to come back to study...but after 2 weeks, I was heading home again...for CNY!!!!
CNY this year was not as lively & spirited...there was news of deaths everywhere.
Cancer is at the top of the fatal disease list for me...
Then it's time to leave my endeared shed again...
This time, I didn't cry & I didn't vomit in plane too!!! *applause*
But my skin allergy is back...after 4 years, estimatedly...
Even though homesickness was not encountered, I still found myself feeling one kind...
But I guess it's all because of the undone business, all the notes messed up here & there, all the assignments & presentations piled up in my head, all the due dates in my diary...
But I'm composing up slowly...
Many things are changing around me, some I'm trying to ignore, even though pain is solidly felt...
But new things I'm intending to make my life more meaningful, are now on schedule..& I'm speeding up..
Alright~I'm done...

*photos will be uploaded later on.

Happy New Year, everyone~

Live life, love life~