A Late Wish

It's the 3rd, kind of late, I know.
Well, I've been too laid back spending time at home.
Didn't even bother going online.
When I came back & finally browsed through everyone's blog about a new year, I got a bit excited.
I didn't really bother about starting a new year.
Starting to feel that new year is really nothing.
Maybe I didn't spend it with the right crowd.
Or I think I might have been too hard on myself on new year eve as I spent the countdown discussing a very big possible crisis in my church with Nian.
No new year resolution or whatever. Nothing I care too much this year except I wish I could be with my family all the time.
With the 4th anniversary coming up in about a week's time, I should really pressure myself to think of something sweet to do. Arrrghhh, the numbness.


Like Kung said, last year was a hell of a roller coaster.
& I feel it's way too far back from the present.
Like it has been ages yet it was last August that I just had my convocation.
The Viva that scared the hell out of me which made me think I wouldn't pass my thesis.
The last semester, the finals, & the jobs.
The patch up, the interviews & all the learnings about new stuffs in order to survive in the city. The series, the sitcoms, the crazy nights, it all feels so far away.
& now thinking back, it's all feeling so meaningless. I think this is what you called WASTED.
What's youth without all these trash, right?


Jane, I love your new year spirit & Kung, how I envy about you having new year resolutions!
Luckily, being easily inspired, I would like to propose my own resolutions.
1. Going somewhere overseas for a vacation with the boyfriend or family or altogether which is not very possible.
2. Have found a job that I truly love with good pay.
3. Spend a more meaningful year. (Don't ask me to define)
4. Be more like myself.


So, what the heck, everyone? It's New Year!!
Love yourself even more this year & love others like how you love yourself.
I know it's not possible but try harder!
Give seats to the elders, don't spit on the road & don't sit on seats for disabled & pregnant women!
Donate your clothes, smile more, do more charity & use less plastic bags!
Love life, everyone.

The So Called Big Day

Yea, the convocation.
A sweaty convocation.
First child in the family.
Kind of a big thing, maybe.
I think my parents are at least half relieved they've finally got rid of paying instalment for a Mercedes, that's what my cousin said.
Then now, they're worried about my health, my career, & ehem, my relationship.
Okay, I don't want to get emotional now, because I just came back to my room after sending them away to the airport.
Yes, my big day! I've finally graduated. I'm a degree holder.
And I've already changed to my second job. Lol~
I hope I'll like it & stick long with it.
These few days have been relaxing & enduring.
Went to Kampar to visit my brother.
Despite the undevelopment, it's a great place, because of the crazily chilling weather.
And according to my brother, it's guaranteed safe.
When we first arrived, I told mum & dad I couldn't breathe.
Goodness, no nothing at all.
My brother said it's difficult to find food on weekends.
And the food there is not nice.


And I feel sorry that I didn't have time to take many photos with EL mates.
My parents were rushing to leave. Moreover, I was not feeling pretty well that day.
Finally, our parents met each other.
Took big group photos.
My dad threatened to post on Facebook. *evil*
Geez, I had so many things to say.
But now, I can't think of any.
Fine, then I'll go back to my series marathon & enjoy the rest of the day off.
Cheerio~


Lastly, Happy Graduation, everyone!!!! 
All the Sampat mates, you'll be sorely missed.

My One & Only 21st B'day

With no exception every year, mummy's b'day is one day before mine, of course. If I'm at home, we would be celebrating together..^^

It's 10 mins before my b'day ends. & I will take a long time to finish this post, as usual.

I speed up now.

Firstly, Happy Birthday to Ceek Chean, same day, but one year older! Haha~I know I know, stop emphasising right. 

& thanks a lot for your thoughtful gift, I like it so much.

& I must thank one fella, if not, he'll be angry. Thank you for what you did yesterday, I'm really very happy & touched. 

Next, thanks to everyone who wished me. Since it's my 21st b'day, I would list out everyone's name. (Never got out of lameness). Thank you so much to my dear family, dad who said I'm more matured (ehem, don't know why. But my dad is always right, you know.), mummy for your lovely present, brother who wanted to give me jogoya treat but I don't want because of my allergy to seafood, Carol who kept me waiting for her message. Thank you to Ooi Noo Yin, my dear silly BFF for her "shiny" gift, haha, my wacky housemates, mishel, zaza, tjc, amelia, ynuoh for the gifts & the nice cake! I was forced to model wearing my b'day gift. Laughed till our stomach bursted. Now, classmates: especially sydney who messed my hair & said I'm closer to my grave, pei ling who put effort to write in mandarin on the b'day card, elyse who's happy I'm finally same age as her, jane for the chocolate, eli who wanted to be the last to wish me, adeline who said she owes me a gift 1st & everyone else in the class, too many. Oh yea, & sal, thank you for the present too! Thanks to all of you for remembering my b'day but I don't know how come you guys do.

David, Lai jing wei, wen fei, Penny, Yutou, Peha, Mut cui, a number that I haven't asked who he/she is (seems like the person knows me quite well because he/she spelled my name correctly! But it doesn't ring a bell), ah go, ah meng, tian lai, liling, edison, ah chuin, I don't want to continue anymore. Just thanks a lot, guys.

Phew, I'm officially 21! It's not that scary to be an adult. I don't mind actually, old fashioned but true, age doesn't matter. Me is fery harpy! Just hope this year will be a much better year. Know God is taking care of me. (ceek chean, I feel so deeply because of your gift!)

My b'day wish is the same as last year, & the year before, & the year before. Just a simple thing I wish I can have for the rest of my life. Who said I'm not easily satisfied huh?

Live life, love life, peeps. 

Happy Birthday, Lynda (perasan, they said.) and I give all the thanks to you, Mummy...& daddy, you are important too...love you guys...hehe~ ^^

Birthday is over! But the spirit never ends.

Home, at last...

I'm in different place now from this morning...

I almost missed my flight...this is one experience...

Embarrassed but I nearly cried in the airport...eyes were teary...

Hmm...skip the part why this happened in the first place...ehem, it's not the time to put the blame...

I'm happy in a way, I had a new adventure today...experienced that my name was announced...

& running to the departure gate & being the last one to get on the plane...

& I wonder when I will recover from travel sickness...not delighted having to rely on medication...

My cousin sister told me I'd get better as I grew up...it's not true!!!

& I'm really tired...I slept right after lunch & woke up only for dinner..

But now, I must write down  this day...the feeling knowing that maybe I wouldn't be able to come home was killing.

I couldn't believe when I got in the plane, thought whether it's possible I was in the wrong flight.

By the way, I'm still not well composed now...like something is not right...just have been feeling weird since last night....

Another news that can make me feel worse, I have to lead singing session in prayer meeting on tuesday.

The news that I was coming back spreaded quite fast, I must say...

It's not that I don't want to lead...but I just feel scared & shy...besides, I haven't done this in a long time.

I'm not a good piece of leadership...I never liked it when I have to lead...

I prefer when I don't have to talk, I can be the pianist, be assistant, usher, where I won't be having so many people listening & looking at me...

Besides, so many years I was not with them, & I wasn't almost never arranged to serve, it'll feel awkward.

But I'm making good use of my EQ now, I'm sure I'll be okay.

I'm home now. & I hope I won't fall sick again.