Vacation, Work, Work, Work, Vacation

We spent a week in Bangkok in July. It was by far my favourite vacation. We literally just did whatever we felt like doing whenever we wished. I don't think I need to elaborate about the city about how inexpensive the food is and how dirt cheap the apparels & others are.

I am still happy with the company. Basically, I just do what I enjoy doing; at the same time, trying to care less about other crap.

Oh yea, I just got promoted! All this while, all my pay raise came from company hopping. So, this is the first time in my life that I have actually earned what I have worked so hard for.

Property management is no easy task. Especially with the current trend of developers building mixed commercial buildings - so you have office suites, retail units, shopping mall & residential suites altogether.

All the sleepless nights and unclaimed naps are paid for, at last. Self-motivation was very important during this period, just like the old days in university.

Someone fell from bike and ended up spending a couple of nights in the hospital end of September. Promised never to ride on bike again, the temptation is now back. Attempting to hypnotise (persuade) me to let him sit on a superbike, it is hard to resist as superbikes are cool. Anyway, it is still a NO.

Planning on more trips next year, Bali, Tokyo and Florida with pit stop at Taipei.

 It's November already and my hair is long again. Last I cut my hair was in a random saloon in Bangkok while he grabbed a pine of beer waiting for me.

Marriage life is getting better & better. He is currently in Siem Reap on his own vacation without me. Short separation does work better than newly wed in making hearts fonder! I thought I would enjoy being single for a few days. But the fact is I couldn't do it at all. Well, this is marriage - love hate relationship!

My mind is very scattered now. Can't compose full story. I shall be back when my eyes are able to open wider.

Lastly, I would like to pray that I will not lose my identity no matter how I age and how the society and company hierarchy will use their best way to distort my identity.

Upside Down

好久没写文了。很想写，但都没灵感。终于有点idea，可是又不知要打中文还是英文。想的东西很散。有些要写中文才有感觉，有些要英文。

现在正一边听歌，一边写。找回以前的感觉了，可是就是觉得少了什么。好像生活没有了乐趣。我也好像麻木了，很懒的去想。有时一直想，是不是找到一个听得懂中文的，他就肯定了解我多一点。可是，不会英文，我又觉得好像思想不同，沟通不来。

我还是老样子，超爱观察四周。不过有时真的想得很累，因为人真的很难了解的。尤其是在大城市，如果你总是要去猜测，推测每个人做的每件事背后的原因，你会想爆脑。正如我星期五早上去戏院看戏，结果戏院超过一半坐满了。

还有我还是百思不得其解，为什么每个星期四下班时间都很塞车，搞得我不喜欢星期四上班。

最近治安很差，到处都是抢劫案，搞得大家人心惶惶。现代的枪匪很没人性，连老人家都不放过。抢钱就抢嘛！为什么非要伤人？政府当然也不理人民死活。咳！是不是真的要认真考虑移民了？

近来的感慨就是人心越来越可怕。我永远无法理解为什么世上竟有这种人存在。我知道世上人口这么多，人人风格不同。但是文明难道真的这么沦陷吗？明明是条马路，就因为你不想多走几步路，竟然可以泊车在路上，把路封住。我真的惊叹，世上没教养的人，最近拼命在我生活出现。家附近开了个庙。那天，有个人星期六一大早去拜神，居然把车停在家门口，而且连字条也没留。结果，他要出门时，发现被困了，车主也久久没出现。后来被逼去搭公车，当然不忘留字条破骂那位先生。希望他看得懂英文和脏话。

我个人真的无法忍受这么没有公德心的人。还有，愚蠢的人。我这份工，我已经预料会见识到这些满脑长草的人，我也不想多说了。总之，结论是，如果你以为那些西方/欧美人都是说话有经大脑的，那你就大错特错了。不过最经典的当然还是我们亚洲人。在我们这区呢，你只能用另外一个观点去衡量了-就是家教和礼貌。因为就算如果你笨，可是你非常有礼貌，你还是会被原谅的。当然你还是最好一点就通啦。

我是不是变了？好像更不近人情了。我没别的意思，我还是那个让位给老人家，不乱丢垃圾的我。我还是那个爱环保的，友善的我。但是如果你了解我，一旦我讨厌一个人，那你几乎就没有挽转的余地。

世界颠倒了，歪理也变对了。男的不像男的；小孩不像小孩，竟开枪射父母；火车位给行李坐，人要站着，物主竟无动于衷。不过，世界越是混乱，当你看到还有有心人，越是欣慰。你会觉得世界还有希望，因为还有人和你一样，没那么被污染。

很想找回少年的感觉，很想像以前那么浩浩荡荡。很多人羡慕我无忧无虑，看似不羁的性格。现在我应该失去了那个感觉和性格。其实我不甘心，可是却很无奈地被逼接受我必须变成现在的我。他说他很羡慕我可以这么无拘无束，好像全世界都不关我的事。我感觉到我慢慢变成没灵魂了。我知道自己要追求什么，可是现实上却有心无力了。是不是我不满足？

刚刚下载完我和僵尸有个约会，全三季，超开心的。我很爱看吸血鬼的戏。我知道，这与我的个人宗教信仰有出入。可是，我很渴望可以在世上有永生。这样，我不用去顾虑我每件事所需要的时间，又或者总是因浪费了时间而感到心痛。我可以慢慢计划，不必被世俗的一切捆绑，做自己想做的事。

可是，那个世界好像复杂很多，就不是你死了就上天堂那么简单。那我是不是又在自找烦恼？但是，想深一层，现在的世界也好不了多少。如果我是僵尸，我还用怕那些没用的强匪？

Another Reunion

Dad, mum & sis just came & left last week. Had been looking forward till I couldn't sleep the night before meeting them.
Took a week leave to go to dad's neck of the woods.
Hadn't been there for 2 - 3 years, I think. Things are more or less the same in the town area.
How weird it is that when I go back with my family, it looks like a town that I'm familiar with.
The roads, the landmarks & all.
But when I go with boyfie & family, it feels like a totally different place. As if I've never been there in my whole life.
Went for the my favourite local dishes. Galloped a glass of old town white coffee & got myself a 3-day stomach ache for that. Yes, I'm coffee intolerant. Not caffeine; I love tea. Hmm, as much as I appreciated it, it's still not worth the torture.
It's not many drops of enzymes or propolis could really help.


Dad went for high school reunion for the 1st time of his life after 30 years.
He came back around 2 a.m. It's not a regular thing, okay.
Everyone was going to sleep. So, I offered to wait for him because we didn't have spare keys for the house. Couldn't sleep in peace till he got back.
You can't be too careful.
After all, these are people you've not met for 30 years.
One day, someone just found you on Netlog & said he's your schoolmate.
They can be anyone they say they are.
But I admit I was amusingly paranoid.
Didn't tell anyone though.


The following day, dad's childhood friend, Uncle Tai took the liberty to bring us around the whole day. Breakfast, coffee break, then his neighbourhood tour. After picking us up from the mall, he decided to drive us to Kampar to pay my brother a surprise visit.
So, off we went & he was surprised. Happy to see us, sad to leave us even though he knows he's going to see us again in a while when he's going back for semester break.
Forever an emo boy!


One of the things that I really would like to shout out to humans is Stop thinking Money is more precious than Time.
I didn't realise since when I've been holding to this motto, but I'm a strong believer.
I will not line up for anything if it's going to be more than 15 minutes. Half an hour if I'm in good mood.
Queueing up for food, big bang sales, etc. is not worth any minute of my time at all.
No food has made me feel I don't mind waiting for it.
I will wait for books & people. Not free gifts or buy one free one promotion.
Believe me, I am very patient when it comes to waiting.
All thanks to my dad who always forgot to pick me up from school or tuition.
Given that there was no spare of mobile from my dad, I learned to endure the torture & enjoy the process. I mean the waiting.
Clothes - on the other hand, I would like to stay unclassified.
Of course, it all depends of the degree of likeness & the length of queue.
But in general, I would think that I can always get better ones & nice clothes will never stop being designed. So, why the rush?


When I posted "I use money to buy time", it appeared that everyone thought I spent money for shopping during free time. And I know why is that. I meant, I use money to save time. I would rather pay more to reach my destination than having to wait for an hour for the bus. I would rather go for normal price than having to queue up for some promotions. Of course, if there's no queue, I wouldn't mind. Well, why spend more if you can save? After all, my point is my priority is Time, not Money. It doesn't mean Money is not important to me. But of course, time will come when you have no choice but to choose Money over Time.


I've tendered my resignation last week while I was on leave.
I've been backstabbed for the first time at work. It felt awesome. I was pissed as I didn't like being blamed for something which was not my fault.
After a while, I just left it & didn't give a fuck.
Again, I feel pity for you. Your world can be as tiny as your dick. Or pussy.
If this is the meaning of life to you, I will let you enjoy it. I can only laugh at you, with despise.


Going to enter another phase of life. New job, new environment, I'm still excited.
Hope I won't be polluted by the numbness of the society. Just don't want to end up like any other person with no passion for work or life anymore. Robotic, meaningless life is one of my biggest fear.


I look forward to the new job. I trust things will just get better & better.
I believe in the hands of God, I am sheltered.

The Depth

Saw something that caught my eyes yesterday for a minute, then another one.
A bus especially for females, Rapid KL U82. 
The tagline is something like "More comfortable & cleaner. 
Well, as a female, I should be proud that we are being paid attention on, but I wonder which group actually asked for this until this could be made possible for implementation. 


I personally think it's a worthless execution, not only wasting money & time, I don't see the point of having this extra bus service. What I'm saying is all this effort should be used for something more worthy, instead of turning females of this country into sexists & making guys think that we are so damn narrow-minded. I'm not eliminating the possibilities that there would be molesting, staring, pickpocketing, sweat smell, & blablabla. 


Being able to stand up for women's rights is one thing, being feminist is another kay. Why don't spend the money on education or improve on the bus schedule? Or hire more cleaners to clean up the roads & drains? Or buy more recycle bins? Well, I seriously don't know how causes are being prioritised in this country.


Yea, if you're some princess, don't take bus. Take taxi, please. Taxis are smelly too. Hire a personal driver & rent a car then. Yea, some say there's definitely a reason for this. Uhuh, because the election is coming soon.


I have no say for how they allocate the source. I'm just voicing out my thoughts. I'm not talking about which ministry is responsible for any actions carried out. I'm just telling in general about how things are being allocated & how I think it's not practical. Don't come & tell me as if you're so professional & trying to sound sophisticated. It's all because you don't get what I meant. Not because you think I don't get what you say.


I'm a female doesn't mean I have to side females. I'm a Chinese doesn't mean I'll side Chinese. Call me racist, call me stereotype, I don't care. You don't have to read this if you don't like. I don't need your opinions. I don't need you to object & comment & be angry about what I reply. So what if I'm judgemental? Can you be more open-minded & just accept my opinion as it is? No one asked you to influence me & try to change how I think. Improve your EQ please. I'm not saying it's totally a bad idea, I just think the cons are bigger than the pros. Time will tell. Yea, call me extremist.


What....ever.....

Some people, their minds just can't get narrower, & they think they are so opinionated. 

What I think doesn't represent everyone else's thought. Get it? 

You don't have to get so worked up. It's okay if you don't accept, but do accept people for who they are. Instead of getting so angry & torturing yourself. 

Get out of your comfort zone please & open your eyes. 

You're not always right & I didn't say I must be right. 

I don't mind if you don't accept, but I do when you're making a big fuss out of it. 

For me, you're immature & simple-minded. & so full of yourself. Remember, you started this. & lastly, I despise your shallowness & am laughing at it. Please grow up. For our age, I'm way ahead of you.

JUST ACCEPT PEOPLE FOR WHO THEY ARE. DON'T OVERREACT, PLEASE.

IT'S NOT HEALTHY & RATIONAL.

In Between X'mas & Thanksgiving

For me, the only ideal way of celebrating X'mas is in church with choir, dances, stage play, duet & last but not least, hymns singing. 

Without all these, X'mas just seems meaningless or dead to me. 

I know I'm uncompromising. I know this has got to change. 

I shall try to change my mindset if I wish to live happier. 

& I am quite bothered that Christmas has been commercialised.

I hate the concept that "Now everyone can celebrate Christmas!"

No offense but the real meaning of X'mas is to celebrate the birth of Jesus & to remember he had come to this world to die for us.

Sorry that I got a bit religious here, but if you don't believe this or you don't give a damn, why the hell are you eating turkey at home & wishing everyone Merry X'mas?

Then, all the terms like X'mas shopping & X'mas wacko sales come out. & you start planning & giving ideas about how you would spend the day or night or you just feel sad about yourself for being alone during X'mas. Or you prefer to wear your Santa cap & get hammered in some clubs & wake up in a total stranger's arms.

But then again, I have no choice but to accept that you have your own freedom & that you've abused the true meaning of X'mas.

Lastly, Merry Christmas! To everyone!

I'm back in my hometown, with the hope to celebrate X'mas but apparently I was late.

So, I don't want to talk about how I spent my Christmas.

Traditionally, my church will have a year end thanksgiving dinner.

I'm currently in between X'mas & Thanksgiving & there are a lot of stuffs going on.

Firstly, because my sister scored straight in PMR & we're having a BBQ party for her.

Now, Thanksgiving is 3 days ahead. & I haven't taken her out for a treat as I promised because she is always busy & not at home. Her schedule is always full but most of the time is spent doing boring teenage stuffs.

Well, at least that is what I think because I'm an adult & I totally understand now why the adults always think what I did was meaningless as so of what I think of my sister sometimes nowadays.

This is because even though she is always out, she actually spends her time in church.

& for me when I was a teenager, hmm I would rather not talk about it.

I feel like I have a lot of things I want to do with her but she seems not available always.

I'm kind of forlorn as I noticed everytime I come back, she is a different person. 

This time, I strongly feel that she's gone a lot rebellious which is not a good sign & I have the urge to yell at her more. 

I'm controlling myself as I'm afraid that it will push her away from me & she would start to hate me & she won't tell me her secrets anymore.

I'm very possessive & I wish my sister would stay the same all the time, being cute & cuddly & always pleasant. Which means she won't turn bad & do bad stuffs.

I love her a lot & I don't want her to make my parents angry.

Lastly, I just want to enjoy my holiday with family at home.

Until I come back for Chinese New Year which is 1 month after I've gone back to work.

Which is a short period. That I am happy of.


Oh yea, almost forgot to tell you guys, I watched Gulliver's Travel! It's so damn hilarious.
When Jack Black was taken to be a girl doll trapped in a big doll house with big pink ribbons on his head. That is my favourite part. Okay, enough of the spoilers.

Till then, good day.

Recalled Event

The boyfriend followed one news where someone found a big dead lizard in the infamous Gardenia bread. Well, regardless of the truthfulness of the news, after my small experiment around 3 years, I stopped my fondness towards Gardenia.
It was one fine day when I woke up to see the Gardenia bread loaf was still fresh almost a week after expiry date when it was supposed to go stale. And no, I didn't keep it in the fridge.


Felt like being poisoned, I decided to buy a loaf of bread from all bakeries that I have higher chances of consumption: High 5, Baker's Cottage, King's, Bread Story and La Boheme. The rest, to be continued lar.
So, of course the ones which go stale sooner are those which are more safe to consume.
Our winner is La Boheme, second taken by Baker's and King's, then Bread Story, followed by High 5 which is slightly better than Gardenia. And of course, those from supermarket are safer too. Like those coffee house white bread, homemade, charcoal bamboo bread, yada yada.


Then my colleague, Ki said her lecturer back in U.S. did experiment on McD burgers. Have been putting it on the shelf for years, and it just got plasticky & hard, like a burger toy which stinks. Yea, maybe most of you already know. Just wondered how she dealt with the cockroaches which would definitely have been attracted to show up on that shelf. I don't like McD anyways.


Oh yea, in case you didn't realise. I've decided to go public again.
Was thinking it's silly to go private because some no life people are too sick & pathetic to seek pleasure from monitoring one's blog & criticising on it.
Hmm, WAKE THE FUCK UP. When are you going to realise it's not worth it?
Okay, I stop here. You're only worth 5 sentences, including this one.


And I'm still having child fetish.
Yam swiss roll with pudding in a bakery near my work is nice.
And for me, cheese is substitute for meat when I can't get the latter.

New Obsessions

I was supposed to post something last week, & maybe also the week before.
But I always have this long, long complex thoughts.
If I write, it'll be endless. & those who visit my blog would be turned off.
My problem is I always like to squeeze everything together.
The whole idea.
But Elyse told me I have to update every week.
Ever since she told me that, I've been wanting to say something here.
But seriously. I remember nothing.
I have piled up a bunch of my newspaper articles which I haven't arranged yet.
I've been obsessed with books, bookmarks, membership cards & buttons lately.
And very addicted to cashew nuts.


Oh yea! Went to the crazy Raya Bazaar with Wan in TAR Road. That was freakingly long!
I'll never go there again, kay? Don't invite me next year!
Went to Coliseum Cafe. He saw it in Asian food Channel.
Gosh. Was looking all over for it with Google Map. An old colonial building it's in.
Established in 1921. The environment is great. It's really old. That's the attractive part.
The food is averagely good.
& goodness. Mineral water, coke & 100 plus are the same price.
RM4.30 before 15% tax. For 250 ml. Not bad huh?


Tomorrow is my last day with my first job!
I'm so thrilled. Those Australians. They are fucking racist & arrogant.
They want to change their flights but don't want to pay anything extra.
Don't you read? The T&C are there. Illiterates.
This is a budget airline. Hello? Fly with Air Asia then. See if they give you any refund at all!
I don't care if your BFF is a  local news editor of whatever major publication company.
I don't care if your skin is red. I don't care if your mother tongue is English!
I don't care if your eyebrows are golden! I don't care how VIP you are!
Don't ever travel to Malaysia, China, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Japan or Korea!
We are all yellow. No brainers. Don't even put your stuffs to be manufactured there.
It's too much to say that I will never go to Australia.
But at least not for anytime soon! I hate your accent so much I want to bomb the whole country.
Next Monday, new job. I don't know what to expect.
I'm not thaaattt excited. Just so so.
Because I always have the impression that city kids are unbelievable. Unbelievably cocky & abusive.
I just hope people there are nice & they don't do office politics or whatever bullshit.
I will rip your heads off. Majority females. Gossip. Sigh.
Anyways, I'm going out in a while. I'm so darn sleepy now.
But that crazy guy wants to go for karaoke.
Jail out time for him!
Ooi Noo Yin & I have stood him up countless times.
Since it's my last day tomorrow, screw it.
Ha. But my eyes are weary.
Ta!


P.S.: Said I would catch up with my old hobby. Will add on some more elements later on.
        My dad got me addicted to True Blood & Supernatural. How odd.

Plus Aid

Phew! Has been a long time. I'm in a tremendously good mood tonight.
Discovered a nice place with Couz x2
Went to a place called Plus 8.

The food is not bad, very reasonable price & crazily relaxing environment.
The design is unique, just simple & sweet.
When you walk in there, there's an oriental style of air conditioned space for Chinese food.
The rest is open air. Walking down the stairs, there's a bar, & further in which is also the underneath of the band stage where professionals singing jazz, is an secluded place for those who just want to have a pleasurable time to drink with peeps.
It's pretty cosy there, we both didn't want to leave.
Decided we would definitely come here frequently. :p
Couz said she would bring her friends here for alcohol. Ha~
Yea, it's an ideal place too.
There were old peeps dancing jazz & chacha there. How adorable & lively of them.
The boss said there's a discount session every day including weekend, from 11am to 5 pm, 40% on everything. Food & drinks! That is a plus point, aite?
Just googled it up & found out they have a website!
Here: Plus 8 Cafe & Club


Okay now, to share some updates of my recent activities.
Still working for the airline outsource.
Supposedly the 1st was my last day.
But they asked me to stay for 2 more days.
& supposedly I would start working in my new place on the 5th.
But since they're closing for Hari Raya, I was asked to start serving there on 20th.
So, having nothing to do for 2 weeks, I extended my stay to the 14th or 15th, depending on my mood.
& I'm still amazed every single day by how idiotic these people could get.
Who should I blame it for??? For their stupidity?


Pax: As you could see here, my flight is 24th sep flying from Penang to S'pore & 28th coming back. Now, I want to change my outbound sector to 25th. Then, can I still come back on the 28th arrrr?
Me: Huh? What do you mean? You want to change your outbound flight date, right? So, you're changing it with us Jetstar or you're flying with another airline?
Pax: No, I'm flying with you guys.
Me: Errr, then why wouldn't you be able to come back on 28th?
Pax: Because I scared if I don't fly on the original date I booked, I can't come back on 28th.
Me: (sweat) Errrr, you already paid & booked the ticket. Why can't you come back on the date that you booked?
Pax: Oh, so, if I change my date also nevermind lar? I'll still be able to fly back on the date I booked lar?
Me: Yeeeaaaaaa.
Pax: Oh okay okay.
Me: (after hanging up) %$&#$%&%%&*!@$*#@^*$!!!!


Me: If you want to change your flight date to "this" "this" "this", this is the amount that you need to pay. 
Pax: Oh okay, so how do I pay it?
Me: You pay now, with me. Using your credit card, over the phone.
Pax: Huh? I can't go to the airport and pay ar?
Me: No, you have to confirm the payment in order to get the flight you want.
Pax's mother took over the phone: Cannot go to the airport and pay ar?
Me: Cannot, have to pay now.
Pax's mother: Cannot hold the ticket for me, then I go to airport to pay ar?
Me: Cannot. I can't do that.
Pax's mother: Oh, cannot lar?
Me: *fed up in silence*
Pax's mother: Huh? Hello?
Me: Yes?
Pax's mother: Cannot pay at airport lar?
Me: YES.
Pax took over the phone: But my grandfather died, that's why I needed to change the flight to a later date. I tried to fax in the death cert but couldn't get through your fax.
Me: I gave you the right number. Maybe the fax was just too busy. You try again later kay?
Pax: But my flight is tonight.
Me: I told your mother earlier when she called. We do not set time limit for compassionate policy. You can take your time to fax in, even after your flight has taken off.
Pax: So, you won't forfeit my flight lar?
Me: NO.
Pax: But I tried to fax in already.
Me: But I didn't receive.
Pax: But I really tried to fax in already.
Me: Yea, but we didn't receive arrr! Whether you tried or not doesn't make any difference.
Pax: So, I can't change my flight already & fly another date?
Me: No, it's too late. Your flight is tonight.
Pax: You can't change for me & I go pay at the airport?
Me: No, I've told your mum that already too!
Pax: Okay lar, then I'll try to fax in again.
Me: (after hanging up) #&$%^!*$*@$^@@!!$!!!#@#!#$$(%^(!!!


Pax: Hello, I want to know if my flight has been delayed.
Me: Okay.
Pax: *silence*
Me: (Oh, I get it. Another idiot who thinks I know who she is) WHICH FLIGHT? (You moron)
Pax: Penang to S'pore. *silence*
Me: (My goodness!!!) WHICH DATE?
Pax: Flight date ar??? You wait ar....erm..
       I don't know oh. Can you help me check ar?
Me: You don't even know what date you're flying, how am I supposed to check for you?!!!
Pax: Oh, like that cannot check lar?
Me: YEA.
Pax: Oh, then nevermind lar~


Pax: Hello, I want to book a flight from S'pore to Shantou. Find for me the cheapest one.
Me: Which date do you want to fly?
Pax: Anytime lar, as long as it's the cheapest.
Me: *looking at the calendar* If you don't tell me at least which month you want to fly, how am I supposed to check for you?
Pax: Erm, then October or November lor.
Me: *tell the price for the whole month*
Pax: Oh okay, the price for the 25th, how much again ar?
Me: *quote price*
Pax: Oh, okay okay.
After 15 minutes, call back.
Pax: Erm, just now you said the *date* *date* is how much again ar?
Me: *quote price* Why don't you just go check online? Everything is clearly stated there.
       Instead of me telling you here & you're not writing the prices down & you
       don't remember at all, wasting our time.
Pax: I don't know how to use PC. All my children are out for work.
Me: Then wait for your children to come back tonight lor.
Pax: Then it'll be too late already.
Me: *strangle myself*


This is how interesting my everyday life is.
They are the reminders that I would never ask stupid questions when I call up customer service & I would try my best to stay smart & clear cut.
Thank you, God for giving me an active brain.
Top scorers for killing my cells everyday:
Gold: S'poreans
Silver: M'sians
Bronze: China
Copper: Taiwanese


Singaporeans love to repeat every single sentence you say.
Whatever information you're providing, they'll repeat after you in the whole freaking conversation.
And of course, M'sians would ask all the amazing questions.
China people are those who can't spell & pronounce English alphabets.
Internation Agent Code doesn't work for them.
You think they'll understand F for Foxtrot?
Even F for Frog is not understandable.
Only F for Flower is comprehensible.
G & J are the same for them.


It's okay. I won't get to laugh at them after this.
So, chill.
Brother came last Friday for visit & holiday.
Broke I almost was! Because of you.
You owe me one.
Spent National Day working. That was depressing.
Heard some Chinese guys being beaten up by Malay teenagers on Merdeka eve for no reason. Yea, of course.


Nights. Helllooooo, Friday Night!

At The End of The Day

Firstly, I would like to apologise to a random visitor to my blog about my previous comment on the stereotyping statement I made in one of my posts.

I know very clearly what sort of person I am.

I'm not racist.

I'm just stereotyping. I despise my own race for their certain acts too.

And I made comments about them in one of my earlier posts as well.

However, I apologise for raising any angst.

I've removed the potential anger stimulating section.

Went to Black Canyon for dinner again last night.

Had Fish & Chips. My god, it's effing nice.

Thai Western fusion restaurant.

The service is *thumbs up*, the food is, needless to say, awesome.

But the Chicken chop is not good. Too hard to chew on, according to Couz x2.

Received an unexpected call yesterday.

I've been accepted to work in the IQ development institution.

It has been 2 weeks, I thought I lost it.

So, thinking that the notice period was 2 weeks, I went to submit my resignation letter today, after collecting my convocation attire today.

Then, the Project Manager, from the same hometown as mine, said it's a month. 

He looked pretty schemy. I get it, they are desperately short of hands. 

Whatever, if I have to, I would stay for 2 more weeks. As if I have a choice.

I'll check with my employment letter later.

Luckily, the new company doesn't mind waiting for another month.

For this, I'll do a thanksgiving prayer.

Finally, the big day is nearing. A sweaty convocation.

I'm thrilled to meet the Corner Lot gang.

Went to 1U after that after getting offer letter from my new place.

Garr, I miss the feeling of shopping in 1U in an weekday during daytime!

Ooi Noo Yin took me to a few new places.

More choices for shopping now.

That Elson just got released from "jail" since last week.

Has been asking us out but we're too tired.

He's going to get very angry because we've been declining his invitation several times.

Saw a left hander shirt today.

Wanted to buy but smaller size was out of stock.

The colour I wanted is for guy, the design for girl is V collared & it's neon green. NO.

The statement on the shirt: If the right side of the brain controls the left side of the body, then only left handed people have the right minds!

I've got the day off for tomorrow too.

At the end of the day, I thought I would have felt bad.

I was feeling bad just now.

But with the pouring rain now & with some reassuring text messages, I'm back to the happy-go-lucky me.

Quoting Eli, If even Lynda has worries, everyone on this world will go insane.

See you this Friday, Eli!

Nights, rainy night. I love you.

10 Days After

Let's do some catch up.
Recap.
Last post, Inception, Saturday 17th.
Went to watch Inception again on Sunday 18th.
This is what you do when you have a lot of dates. Just kidding.
Played my first in a lifetime bowling.
Didn't feel that bad. I don't do sports.
And I won. They always say, first time luck.
Then, meet up with Ooi Noo Yin & David that night.
She's going to be very busy after this, no time to hang out.
David is still....jobless & content as he is.
Was late for bed.

Then, another normal routine week, with some excitement I feel for convocation.
And happy because had another week of half day training.
Survived one week without internet access.
Stupid Streamyx did not inform us about resetting the main cable.
And how many times we called, they said it's technical issue until Saturday, we got the right story.
The bus is getting punctual recently.
I hope it will stay this way.

Last Saturday, watched Shanghai.
Movies of historical events are to me irresistable.
War, Japanese Occupation, the sacrifice, the spirit of resistance party, the old time culture.
Recommended if you are to share taste as mine.
And I'm kind of annoyed that this Google Chrome is showing error of the word "Movies"
Red underline, there! Again!

What did I do on Sunday?
Oh! I went to church again.
The grand church which practises the speaking of tongues.
Then, some Negro guys from same church with BO were trying to make romantic approach.
Had to call LPT to look like I was busy on phone to stop them from attempting to get my phone number again.
Realised I miss serving in church. My eyes were watery that day.
I'm still struggling, to find the right path. I never doubted whether I'm capable of being involved in such noble cause. I know He'll use me to lighten this world.

And that night, daddy told me Pastor Lau, the one who founded my hometown church is now in Puchong.
Dad gave him my number and they contacted me today.
Going to have dinner with them tomorrow.
Excited about it.
They're going to send me back & see how far it is from the church.
Will then arrange to fetch me to church.
Fingers twisted, things will work out.

Took leave today to settle convo bills & stuffs.
Went to watch Despicable Me in Tropicana.
The minions and the 3 girls are so cute.
I asked him a stupid question. Are the minions planktons or potatoes?
Hahaha~I was responded with a glare, in a nice way.
I still think it's funny.
The movie was erm partly funny. Not too bad.
Before movie started, I got a call from Cosmotots.
I'm shortlisted. Yay.
Going for first interview this Saturday.
The receptionist was rude when she was on the phone.
Sanguinely things will sail the way round, with a good strong wind.
Not saying my life now sucks.
But reaching office when the sun just starts rising doesn't feel pleasant at all.
I feel like an answering machine now.

Picking up some extra reading now.
Aiming to finish all my books.
Know it's going to take ages.
Decided that it's nicer to read the book after you watch the movie.
The actor chosen for the character of Sherlock Holmes is perfect, yea I know it doesn't match with the outlook he's supposed to have as in the book, but come on, eye candies kay.
This is overwhelming, making the book much more delightful to read ey.
I'm reading The Best Of Sherlock Holmes now.
So, you can guess.
Robert Downey Jr. & Jude Law.
Takes me longer time to finish even a page, as I have to stop to imagine every scene.
I am grateful I have solid imagination.
But I'll be fair, Sir Conan Doyle is a good writer.

Half way through watching 500 Days of Summer.
Just paused when a girl said "I always want to write, I majored in English, you know. But what can you do with that?"
Ehem, yea.
Went to chat with couz, came back to finish this post.
Time for bed again.
And I don't like Zooey Deschanel.
I don't know why they always take her.
She always has the same facial expression, same tone, same hair, for goodness' sake.
Feels like a dead, confused old soul.
Always with the character "I'm so messed up. I don't know what I want in life, or out of life."
I guess that is the attraction?

Okay. Enough for today.
It's pay day tomorrow!
Nighty.

P.S: I'm going to pick up my old hobby again. Stay tuned.

With Regrets

I just went through what I thought is the worst week of my life.

But after these 2 days, using the word "ill-fated" would be exaggerating.

When I reach Asia Jaya everyday, the sun just starts to rise.

That feeling, not good at all.

My pc jammed everyday last week, except the day I took mc & didn't go to work.

Missed the earlier bus twice, as the bus is NEVER EVER punctual.

I miss 628.

In order to ensure I can definitely get on the earlier bus, so that I will not be late for work.

I have to be waiting down there at 6.25am

& I know one minute can make a huge difference.

I was so eager to blog about how hapless my last week was.

But now, I've forgotten what happened.

This is a good thing.

I think, this is how we grow up.

By getting used to all of this.

This week, I'm almost numb, & demotivated.

I was never motivated, at least not more than 2 hours.

I don't care how much they pay me, I just don't care.

I regret that I didn't take a nice long break before starting to step in working life.

Even though I kind of hate my job, I didn't regret taking it.

At least I learned something. Whatever.

I have to say.

The airline's customer service sucks to the max & back to the bottom.

A customer called to ask if we've received her letter concerning her refund.

She said she wrote in last month.

Guess what I had to tell her?

Me: I don't know anything about it. You have to wait for them to reply.

Her: But how long do I need to wait? & how do I know if they've received my letter?

Me: Because this is under another department. So, I really don't know anything.

I guess you just have to wait. Or if you're worried, you can write them another letter.

Or fill up our customer online feedback form.

It's like telling them to write in as many letters as possible to ensure they have got it through.

We are not allowed to give any phone number or whatever direct contact method.

They have to call, then we'll put a note, so that people at our end will get back to them within don't know how many working days, which most of them never did.

How splendid it must be.

That she did not get angry! Ha~

Well, I guess Australians are always with the huge range & big waves of emotions.

Not Singaporeans.

Kay, too tired for today. Nights.

碎碎念

第一次写华语~感觉有点怪...

之前的那篇，被我删除了，大家就当没了那回事吧！

终于要下雨了。。天气疯狂似的热了几天，连坐着都流汗的感觉很难受。。

那位不同系的臭男生带着新买的相机和电话出国去玩了。。

还要去两个礼拜。。真是羡慕，实习的学期，不用赶报告，也没有期考。。

还有将近两个月的长假。。回来又有新车驾。。好欠打。。

最近，超多感触，可是不知道要从哪里说起。。

唉~算了，想到来，头也爆了。。

总之，就是一直在找着感触。。每件事的感触。。

虽然感觉不错，总觉得自己好像领悟了不少，但是却有着耐人寻味的心情。。

由于原则问题，有好多事情，总是禁止自己不要做。。

但是，情绪化的我，此时此刻，豁出去了。。

我。。。。好想他。。。王八蛋！天天都黏在一起，现在离我而去！

真的很不是滋味！！现在，手机是废的了！一整天就是酱过了~

去什么旅行啦！单单坐飞机都要坐五天了！真没瘾~

等你回来，就要好好泡制你!

真的好不习惯哦！太久没有写华语，真的生疏了很多呃！

这篇东西很有可能会无故消失，当我发泄完毕以后。。

那些最有可能会来骂我的几个，习惯就好，习惯就好~

期考就在六天后，急救~

发泄完了。。

请那些对我现在生活不了解的人，不要胡乱猜测，也不要问东问西。。

“哎呀！你有男朋友啦？”

“没有啦！”

“骗人！怎么可能？我不相信。”

“那你问来干嘛？你都有自己的答案了，我给的，还重要吗？”

如果你的成熟度跟你的年龄已经是同年了，我很乐意慎重的回答你。。

我真的很不喜欢如果我口里说出的尽是没意义的话。。

我。。不喜欢浪费时间说这些。。就连敷衍，应酬都很讨厌。。

我好讨厌重复，而且是风雨不改的台词。。换点新鲜的，说些有深度的话。。

你们不是真的关心我的爱情生活，我只是你们八卦话题的其中一项。。

爱情，被你们问着问着，好像价值被贬低了，在你们眼里，它好像是拿来招话柄的~

真的很讨人厌。。

我真的衷心的觉得你们好可悲。。说来说去都是这些。。长大吧，是时候了！

回去的时候，很多人都会觉得我骄傲。。我没有，我们只是不一样。。

如果我像你们一样，我会很讨厌我自己。。从来都不愿意停留在那个层次。。

好像你们的世界，永远就是那么大。。可悲~

说真的，好像真的不关你们的事，对吧？

怎么这么烦？一个两个都一样。。肤浅。。

*又在骂人了，怨念太重，积太久了*

You Just Don't Know

I've been getting this a lot lately. "It's okay, Lynda won't mind." or anything similar.

It's starting to piss me off. I may not mind about small matters, but that doesn't mean I don't mind if you're being rude. When you take my stuffs without asking. When you will say anything to me & you think I don't mind. I actually do. But I smile & give it away. But that also doesn't mind I will forgive & forget. Especially when I think the hurtful words you say are intentional.

When I do you a favor, say thank you. When I say thank you, say you're welcome. When you step on my feet or drop my stuffs, say you're sorry. When you want to take my food, ask. I will give. Just because I never say no, don't assume I won't mind, for goodness' sake. When you are almost finishing my food, don't think that I don't mind.

I really suck at telling people off. I don't know how. I'll end up being weird & people will start backing off. Because before this, no one had done all these to me in my life.

I believe I can tell. With all the facial expressions & voice tones. I observe facial reactions. I believe I can still differentiate. It's too bad if I misunderstand you as trying to hurt me. But I know you don't care.

If you think how I dress up today is ugly, if you think my specs are old fashioned, if you think I'm fat, keep it to yourself. Unless you like revenge. If you think what I blog is rubbish, don't tell me too. No one asked you to read.

Don't tell me you're just joking after you make your statements with a serious tone & push yourself hard to make a smile. I can tell & I won't believe. Call me pessimistic. Call me pathetic.

I remember offensive or hurtful words best.

I know I've released too much of the "Lynda doesn't mind" aura. Until people think I don't care about anything.

"Lynda, I'm sure you'll only start your assignments the night before the submission date. You look like you don't care also." This may seem nothing but if you get to see the expression. This statement sounded so deliberated.

Don't tell me you mean no harm. You are already blacklisted.

Don't say I'm not being fair. I only conclude after experiencing a few of these for like 3 times. It's pretty obvious seeing how you treat me usually.

If I'm not important in your life & you really don't care, can you like, leave me alone?

I believe in courtesy. I won't say I've never said or done anything hurtful or rude. But I know I never meant them.

Even if I hate you. I won't waste my time trying to hurt you. I try my best to watch what I say. Just because you say you're like this, that doesn't means you can continue thinking that people will not mind. Ever thought maybe you've hurt someone very deeply & he/she can't forget what you said? Even though you know you didn't mean it..some people are born to be extra sensitive but you just don't know, you just never know what damage you've done to them.

I've experienced before. When I see the person cried confessing to me that he had been feeling hurt about what I said many years ago, that was painful for me. The damage is done. I only can hope he'll forget it. Because what I said had haunted him for so long.

I feel so insignificant lately..I hate it when people interrupt like all the time when I'm talking. Then what I say will not be bothered anymore. People seem to get so carried away with themselves. Especially when I'm telling them stuffs. Hmm, basically they just don't care what I'm saying. So I won't talk much to this certain group of people.

I'm Dororo.

No one will notice if I'm sleeping & they just come in & shout when talking when it's not even their room. Somehow, I just blend in my bed already & they don't bother to see if I'm actually there.

Conclusion, I don't gain respect from this group of people. I can see that.

All because "Lynda doesn't mind".

I just hope that people will bother to knock & see if I'm sleeping before they start to raise their voice in my room.

I didn't do anything wrong to deserve this. You won't like if I do this to you too.

If I say anything hurtful, I'm sorry. I'm not expressive, that's why I'm here blogging.

This is an angry post. It's just time to release. I'm not messed up, okay?

Retrieving...

I'm back.....after so many months...ever since the last sem break, I got demotivated again...
Let me do some update...last year christmas was fun & trembling my heart as usual...
Seeing my sister dancing & singing choir on stage made me felt...she's a big girl now..
Doing what I've been doing for God when I hadn't come here to study...she was so pretty & cute that night...
I felt sweet & relieved...just feel great to be home...& love you a lot, sis...
after X'mas, of course it's the annual year end thanksgiving dinner in church...
Always looking forward to this, *ahem* not because of the food...I had to do the slides last night...
Key in all the procedures...those adults were so irresponsible...the slide projecting was a mess...I was immensely angry at the moment, no thanks to my brother's splendid annoyance beside me...saying I wasn't good & all...
but then, my mood switched back...there was game session, I like sharing session the most...
Mum & dad went up, giving thanks for everything God blessed us with that year...
& they stayed in church for the new year countdown...it's their 1st time...^^
Then it's time to come back to study...but after 2 weeks, I was heading home again...for CNY!!!!
CNY this year was not as lively & spirited...there was news of deaths everywhere.
Cancer is at the top of the fatal disease list for me...
Then it's time to leave my endeared shed again...
This time, I didn't cry & I didn't vomit in plane too!!! *applause*
But my skin allergy is back...after 4 years, estimatedly...
Even though homesickness was not encountered, I still found myself feeling one kind...
But I guess it's all because of the undone business, all the notes messed up here & there, all the assignments & presentations piled up in my head, all the due dates in my diary...
But I'm composing up slowly...
Many things are changing around me, some I'm trying to ignore, even though pain is solidly felt...
But new things I'm intending to make my life more meaningful, are now on schedule..& I'm speeding up..
Alright~I'm done...

*photos will be uploaded later on.

Happy New Year, everyone~

Live life, love life~