In Between X'mas & Thanksgiving

For me, the only ideal way of celebrating X'mas is in church with choir, dances, stage play, duet & last but not least, hymns singing. 

Without all these, X'mas just seems meaningless or dead to me. 

I know I'm uncompromising. I know this has got to change. 

I shall try to change my mindset if I wish to live happier. 

& I am quite bothered that Christmas has been commercialised.

I hate the concept that "Now everyone can celebrate Christmas!"

No offense but the real meaning of X'mas is to celebrate the birth of Jesus & to remember he had come to this world to die for us.

Sorry that I got a bit religious here, but if you don't believe this or you don't give a damn, why the hell are you eating turkey at home & wishing everyone Merry X'mas?

Then, all the terms like X'mas shopping & X'mas wacko sales come out. & you start planning & giving ideas about how you would spend the day or night or you just feel sad about yourself for being alone during X'mas. Or you prefer to wear your Santa cap & get hammered in some clubs & wake up in a total stranger's arms.

But then again, I have no choice but to accept that you have your own freedom & that you've abused the true meaning of X'mas.

Lastly, Merry Christmas! To everyone!

I'm back in my hometown, with the hope to celebrate X'mas but apparently I was late.

So, I don't want to talk about how I spent my Christmas.

Traditionally, my church will have a year end thanksgiving dinner.

I'm currently in between X'mas & Thanksgiving & there are a lot of stuffs going on.

Firstly, because my sister scored straight in PMR & we're having a BBQ party for her.

Now, Thanksgiving is 3 days ahead. & I haven't taken her out for a treat as I promised because she is always busy & not at home. Her schedule is always full but most of the time is spent doing boring teenage stuffs.

Well, at least that is what I think because I'm an adult & I totally understand now why the adults always think what I did was meaningless as so of what I think of my sister sometimes nowadays.

This is because even though she is always out, she actually spends her time in church.

& for me when I was a teenager, hmm I would rather not talk about it.

I feel like I have a lot of things I want to do with her but she seems not available always.

I'm kind of forlorn as I noticed everytime I come back, she is a different person. 

This time, I strongly feel that she's gone a lot rebellious which is not a good sign & I have the urge to yell at her more. 

I'm controlling myself as I'm afraid that it will push her away from me & she would start to hate me & she won't tell me her secrets anymore.

I'm very possessive & I wish my sister would stay the same all the time, being cute & cuddly & always pleasant. Which means she won't turn bad & do bad stuffs.

I love her a lot & I don't want her to make my parents angry.

Lastly, I just want to enjoy my holiday with family at home.

Until I come back for Chinese New Year which is 1 month after I've gone back to work.

Which is a short period. That I am happy of.


Oh yea, almost forgot to tell you guys, I watched Gulliver's Travel! It's so damn hilarious.
When Jack Black was taken to be a girl doll trapped in a big doll house with big pink ribbons on his head. That is my favourite part. Okay, enough of the spoilers.

Till then, good day.