14 December 2008

Home, at last...

I'm in different place now from this morning...
I almost missed my flight...this is one experience...
Embarrassed but I nearly cried in the airport...eyes were teary...
Hmm...skip the part why this happened in the first place...ehem, it's not the time to put the blame...
I'm happy in a way, I had a new adventure today...experienced that my name was announced...
& running to the departure gate & being the last one to get on the plane...
& I wonder when I will recover from travel sickness...not delighted having to rely on medication...
My cousin sister told me I'd get better as I grew up...it's not true!!!
& I'm really tired...I slept right after lunch & woke up only for dinner..
But now, I must write down  this day...the feeling knowing that maybe I wouldn't be able to come home was killing.
I couldn't believe when I got in the plane, thought whether it's possible I was in the wrong flight.
By the way, I'm still not well composed now...like something is not right...just have been feeling weird since last night....
Another news that can make me feel worse, I have to lead singing session in prayer meeting on tuesday.
The news that I was coming back spreaded quite fast, I must say...
It's not that I don't want to lead...but I just feel scared & shy...besides, I haven't done this in a long time.
I'm not a good piece of leadership...I never liked it when I have to lead...
I prefer when I don't have to talk, I can be the pianist, be assistant, usher, where I won't be having so many people listening & looking at me...
Besides, so many years I was not with them, & I wasn't almost never arranged to serve, it'll feel awkward.
But I'm making good use of my EQ now, I'm sure I'll be okay.
I'm home now. & I hope I won't fall sick again.

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