Bollocks

Realised my mind is getting lazy.

No time for inspiration. Just feeling so switched off.

Trying to come up with something nice to write about & type it in Chinese.

But only managed to squeeze out some statements. Scattered here & there.
No unity.

I am officially free. Free from work, I mean. Not single free.

Some good time off for myself. Get myself rearranged & neat up.

Settle some unfinished errands. Do what I've left undone for more than 2 years.

And do some New Year shopping. Hehe~

Went to KLCC with the boyfriend yesterday.

It's the first time we went on a date by public transport.

4 years & this is the first time. It felt nice.

It's always good to do something new, to experience more as a couple, no matter how tiny the event could be.

The fellow was leaning his head on my shoulder. Never thought he would do that.

Like a little boy, so cute & sweet. Don't scold me for typing it out here, please.

Shall read books more now, since I have the time of the world.

How weird that you can stay friends with people you've worked with for only 3 months.

But those college friends. Poof! Gone. No posts on FB, no catch up calls. I miss you guys, kay! Know you're busy & in different states.

Called Peha the other day. She's still rotting at home, being a babysitter & house-maker. 

I missed those days.

Miss going to karaoke with you guys, miss crapping & bitching with Corner Lot. Miss laughing our asses off all the time. Miss being the one cracking mean & hilarious jokes. Miss being called mean & evil. Miss being youthful.

I miss my kids. This sounds lame but you have to admire God's creation.

Everytime I looked at them, I just don't know how God can create such beautiful kids.

Such innocence, purity and naiveness.

They could make my heart melt. So therefore, I'm being called paedophile. :p

Every movement they make, every word they say. Seriously, I really don't know how to be strict with them. They're just kids. They don't know what they're doing.

Everytime I think that way, I can't get myself to be firm & say No.

I can chat away & be friends with them. I can never be their teacher.

I can share knowledge but I'll always be complacent.

Therefore, I became unsuitable.

Until some 4 year old has a crush on me & started drawing heart shape on a piece of paper for me. Lucas, I miss you!!!!

He's going to grow up handsome, alright. Someone, don't get jealous again when you see this.

The cousin x2 bought a sewing machine. A mini one.

I think it's temporary hobby, though she does like all those knitting, sewing stuffs.

Ha, but it looks fun. So, we discussed together what she could sew.

Coaster, bookmarks, tissue holder, bla bla bla.

Made me a tissue holder which I love so much.

It's double sided. 1 design on one side. So when you get bored of one, you can turn out the other side.

The pictures.

Going to sew a wooden button on the polka dot side.

Got really hooked with Meiji green tea ice-cream & carrot milk juice.

And American series, "Lie to Me". Fancy Tim Roth. He's perfect for this role because he's a Brit.

He gets into the character very well like he's a natural. Like he's really the one who discovered the theory. 

It's based on a real study by Dr Paul Ekman who had been studying on interpreting micro-expressions and body language through Facial Action Coding System which he developed.

Well, of course you won't become an expert of reading faces after watching this but you will get some grasps of the knowledge.

It's really fascinating how human beings express themselves and how you could see things coming if you are very good at reading muscle movements on one's face to identify types of emotions one is showing. This way, no one will be jailed or punished for something he has not done. Nor can one get away for a crime or mistake he has done.

& you can avoid a punch in your face.

& you can tell when someone is lying. I like this best.

Ekman concluded that a few human expressions are universal after he's done a cross-cultural research on Fore tribesman of Papua New Guinea. They were able to associate & identify some expressions to specific emotions. The basic emotions he recognised in 1972 are Fear, Anger, Disgust, Happiness, Sadness and Surprise. And in 1990s, Amusement, Contempt, Contentment, Embarrassment, Excitement, Guilt, Pride in Achievement, Relief, Satisfaction, Sensory pleasure and Shame.

Some expressions are similar, for example, Fear & Sadness. Human will show their true feelings in the first 3 seconds when some news are breaking. After that, it's all fake.

It's up to season 3 now.

I'm still addicted to Gossip Girl as well.

This post, again, as usual, took me more than 2 hours to finish.

Because I'm multitasking all the time. Understatement.

And I've sewn the button on.

Sigh, how will I ever get over it?

He thinks it's better that I never know. I'm pretty sure about it too.

But how to not bother?

Truth or happiness. Never both. - Cal Lightman

A Getaway

A late post.


Went to Cameron with the boyfriend & the family last week.
Spent one night chatting with his mother while he was sleeping beside.
And he heard some parts of our conversation while pretending to sleep.
Were actually talking about him.
Confronted me the next day & is still bothered by it.
Honey, don't feel shy. Get over it, kay? =p
Love the cold weather, love getting to relax.
Love waking up & getting to see him straight away.
Not sleeping beside me, of course.
He was in the other room with his brother.
Me with his sister.
Only hated when I had motion sickness.
My deepest gratitude for your thoughtfulness. *kiss*
Heartfelt when I saw you kept checking out how I was doing.


Hard to get along with the colleagues, but not trying hard.
Don't think it's really necessary, don't feel like wanting to please them on purpose too.
I won't buy you donuts or a Starbucks coffee, so that you will scream in joy & say "Awww, so sweet!!!" I'll be nice when I feel like, when I think you're worth it.


Sorry, peeps, have not been updating even though I promised so.
Hmm, so lazy to think about what to write.


Erm, just a shout out. I have to admit, sometimes I would do on purpose that I won't respond to those people, I think, who only come to me when they need my help.
When I'm so tired and so I won't have the mood, I seldom bother to reply. Either you ask me directly, "Hey, I need a favor from you. Can you......?" 
I would feel MUCH better that way, honestly. 
In other words, don't beat around the bush & try to start things off with so called courtesy & good manners or whatever. I don't buy that.
And secondly, I don't feel proud if you would choose to come to me when you need help. I feel proud when you would come chat with me just because you simply want to do so. That will make it more likely for me to help when you're asking for a favor.


Time for bed again.Till then.