Upside Down

好久没写文了。很想写，但都没灵感。终于有点idea，可是又不知要打中文还是英文。想的东西很散。有些要写中文才有感觉，有些要英文。

现在正一边听歌，一边写。找回以前的感觉了，可是就是觉得少了什么。好像生活没有了乐趣。我也好像麻木了，很懒的去想。有时一直想，是不是找到一个听得懂中文的，他就肯定了解我多一点。可是，不会英文，我又觉得好像思想不同，沟通不来。

我还是老样子，超爱观察四周。不过有时真的想得很累，因为人真的很难了解的。尤其是在大城市，如果你总是要去猜测，推测每个人做的每件事背后的原因，你会想爆脑。正如我星期五早上去戏院看戏，结果戏院超过一半坐满了。

还有我还是百思不得其解，为什么每个星期四下班时间都很塞车，搞得我不喜欢星期四上班。

最近治安很差，到处都是抢劫案，搞得大家人心惶惶。现代的枪匪很没人性，连老人家都不放过。抢钱就抢嘛！为什么非要伤人？政府当然也不理人民死活。咳！是不是真的要认真考虑移民了？

近来的感慨就是人心越来越可怕。我永远无法理解为什么世上竟有这种人存在。我知道世上人口这么多，人人风格不同。但是文明难道真的这么沦陷吗？明明是条马路，就因为你不想多走几步路，竟然可以泊车在路上，把路封住。我真的惊叹，世上没教养的人，最近拼命在我生活出现。家附近开了个庙。那天，有个人星期六一大早去拜神，居然把车停在家门口，而且连字条也没留。结果，他要出门时，发现被困了，车主也久久没出现。后来被逼去搭公车，当然不忘留字条破骂那位先生。希望他看得懂英文和脏话。

我个人真的无法忍受这么没有公德心的人。还有，愚蠢的人。我这份工，我已经预料会见识到这些满脑长草的人，我也不想多说了。总之，结论是，如果你以为那些西方/欧美人都是说话有经大脑的，那你就大错特错了。不过最经典的当然还是我们亚洲人。在我们这区呢，你只能用另外一个观点去衡量了-就是家教和礼貌。因为就算如果你笨，可是你非常有礼貌，你还是会被原谅的。当然你还是最好一点就通啦。

我是不是变了？好像更不近人情了。我没别的意思，我还是那个让位给老人家，不乱丢垃圾的我。我还是那个爱环保的，友善的我。但是如果你了解我，一旦我讨厌一个人，那你几乎就没有挽转的余地。

世界颠倒了，歪理也变对了。男的不像男的；小孩不像小孩，竟开枪射父母；火车位给行李坐，人要站着，物主竟无动于衷。不过，世界越是混乱，当你看到还有有心人，越是欣慰。你会觉得世界还有希望，因为还有人和你一样，没那么被污染。

很想找回少年的感觉，很想像以前那么浩浩荡荡。很多人羡慕我无忧无虑，看似不羁的性格。现在我应该失去了那个感觉和性格。其实我不甘心，可是却很无奈地被逼接受我必须变成现在的我。他说他很羡慕我可以这么无拘无束，好像全世界都不关我的事。我感觉到我慢慢变成没灵魂了。我知道自己要追求什么，可是现实上却有心无力了。是不是我不满足？

刚刚下载完我和僵尸有个约会，全三季，超开心的。我很爱看吸血鬼的戏。我知道，这与我的个人宗教信仰有出入。可是，我很渴望可以在世上有永生。这样，我不用去顾虑我每件事所需要的时间，又或者总是因浪费了时间而感到心痛。我可以慢慢计划，不必被世俗的一切捆绑，做自己想做的事。

可是，那个世界好像复杂很多，就不是你死了就上天堂那么简单。那我是不是又在自找烦恼？但是，想深一层，现在的世界也好不了多少。如果我是僵尸，我还用怕那些没用的强匪？

Everything God does is Perfect

A page shared this on Facebook. The message is very simple, but not everyone can do it. I truly believe in this & I wish I can have the heart of the servant one day. We all need to learn. Christian or not.


A King had a male servant who, in all circumstances always said to him;
My king, do not be discouraged
because everything God does is perfect,
no mistakes.
One day, they went hunting and
a wild animal attacked the king,
the servant managed to
kill the animal but
couldn't prevent his majesty
from losing a finger.
Furious and without showing gratitude,
the King said;
if God was good,
I would not have been attacked
and lost one finger.
The servant replied;
Despite all these things,
I can only tell you that God is
good and everything He does is perfect,
He is never wrong.
Outraged by the response,
the king ordered the arrest of his
servant.
Later, he left for another hunt
and was captured by savages
who use human beings for
sacrifice.
In the altar, the savages found
out that the king didn't had 
one finger in place, he was
released because he was
considered not "complete" to be
offered to the gods.
On his return to the palace,
he authorized the
release of his servant and said;
My friend, God was
really good to me.
I was almost killed but for lack
of a single finger I was let go.
But I have a question;
If God is so good, why did He
allow me to put you in jail?.
He replied; My king, if I had gone
with you,
I would have been sacrificed 
because I have no missing finger.


Everything God does is perfect, He
is never wrong.
Often we complain about life,
and the negative things that
happen to us, forgetting
that nothing is random,
and that everything has
a purpose.
God knows why he chose you to
receive this message today, 
please bless someone with it by sharing it. 
Everything happens for a reason, 
things do happen for the best.