Changing Channel...

At this very moment, my eyes are covered with rage more than sleepiness..
Have you ever experienced that everytime when you are going to lie down your comfortable bed to sleep, the first thing that comes in you mind is, "This time, what time will I be woken up?" ?
It's a good thing you don't even need an alarm & you get to wake up early too! Nor Time or rainy days will change it! How amazing!
Sometimes I will wonder why I still treat people good when they are not to me...
Not to say that I'm very kind...so that means you know why when I'm being mean, bad, sarcastic, evil and all, because at that moment, I feel that it's not worth being kind...so the "me" now is after evilness manufacturing.
Well, I'm always struggling between good & evil...it's not an easy fight.
I'm also human...just because I'm not important to you, it doesn't mean you shouldn't bother about me..
You will even go help an old lady to pick her oranges on the street..it's very hard to understand human huh?
Then do I need to be old too?
I've been tolerating, this is what I get?
Well, I sure hope my dear friend, the Kung fu Panda lover has made up her mind to replace me..70% confirmed, she said..
So I can get out of here to somewhere where I can sleep at whatever time I want & wake up every morning naturally, & also get to have a good sleep when I'm sick, especially fever. & I can take every nap without worrying what time I'll be woken up.
Since when, sleeping is a torturing process?
Thanks to them, once again, it is proven that it's stupid to be kind.
It's either you be a person that is so kind that people won't want to harm you & always be so considerate to you.
Or you be a bad person that you will scold straight in the face when someone pisses you.

I used to be very grateful that I'm a light sleeper...the lightest one, I can say..
Used to think it's a blessing..
But not anymore...
Now I wish I can sleep like a pig, like my beloved friend, or a log, like my another friend..

My dad always says, I know humans, how they behave & how they react to certain situations, I'm also human.
So no expectations, no disappointment.
He is right. But it's not as easy as saying, of course.
Don't expect people to be good to you.
Don't expect that they will care for you.
Always keep in mind, you are most important of everything you have in your life.
So when you don't dare to do anything, scared you will offend people, keep in mind that if you don't do it, you will be the one who suffer...& if you don't care, who the hell will?

Too bad I have to watch little ninjai with a scene that the villain's eye was hurt & to stop the pain, he digged out his own eye & ate it with big laughs, to make me feel better.

Happy Tree Friends no longer works.