22 July 2009 1 comments

The Most Accurate Description of My Personality

双鱼座
看看现在铺天盖地的关于双鱼的各种传说,分析,解释。似乎无一例外的把双鱼当作了一个女人的星座,动不动就是流眼泪,唉声叹气。可惜可叹,如果双鱼真的只是这样的一个星座,那么可以说没有一个人愿意去做双鱼,而历史上也不会有什么著名的双鱼人物了。 现在让我还给你一个真实的双鱼座。
最本质的部分:思考双鱼座的最本质特点是什么?善良?懦弱?温柔?不是,我告诉你,是思考(在很多情况下,是过多的思考)。    
是的,双鱼座的一切特性,都来自于他过多的思考,或许世上没有第二个星座比双鱼座更能洞察别人的心理,更能分析事情的本质。    
你可以称之为敏感,但是一旦这种敏感能够正确的使用,那么没有人能比双鱼座更快的学会人情事故,在这一方面,有一个双鱼座的伟人做的尤其出色,他的名字是周恩来。   

因为思考的太多,所以双鱼座的人就算不是真正善良的,也至少是表面善良的。对于双鱼来说,善良与其说是本质,不如说是双鱼喜欢的一种生活方式,以善良的方式活着,是轻松而又受人尊敬的,一般的双鱼座很早就能洞察到这一点.再谈谈温柔,这一点,不管是哪篇文章,都不会忘了提双鱼座的温柔。是的,双鱼的确是温柔的。因为双鱼总能敏感的体会到对方的细微变化,时刻了解到对方心意的转变,表现在行动上,就是能尽快的知道,什么时候应该为女孩披上自己的外衣,什么时候应该停下手里的活,转过身去和女友好好的说话。
  
与众不同的部分:信仰   
双鱼的信仰就是没有信仰!    
在双鱼的世界里面,没有绝对的对和错,如果发生了一件事,他第一件做的事情是去理解这件事,去分析这件事,而不是去判断这件事是对的还是错的。   

下面引用一段话说明双鱼的这个特点:     
'鱼座男人没有偏见,没有亲自穿著鹿皮走几哩路,他不会评断印地安人;没有试试赤脚走路,他也不会评断裸体主义者。
甚至这些做了,他还是会满心谅解而不会过于批评。他很少冷酷的指控,倒是每每温暖的忍耐,他甚至会试试了解他的岳母,天底下有几个男人能这样?
海王子拥有罕见的同情精神,他的朋友向他吐露秘密而从不担忧会把他吓著,要吓到鱼起码需要两吨以上的炸弹。
如果你和我以及你的鱼儿三人同坐一室,一个男人走进来告诉我们他有些担忧,因为他重婚,在四个州各有一个老婆,你可能眼睛瞪得大大瞧他,冒著火,心想监狱是最适合他的地方,我可能鄙夷的说他是个卑鄙的流氓,但你的鱼儿很可能问:'那四州?你爱不爱她们其中任何一个?
'鱼很好奇,但防震。对他来说,这个家伙需要一缸子同情以及好得要命的律师。    

有一位伟人利用了这点特性,结果成就了科学史上的神话,他就是爱因斯坦。    

双鱼的致命缺点:懦弱  
现实中的双鱼座确实给人太多的失望,懦弱,多疑,自卑,优柔寡断,没有主见.....一个双鱼座或许没有上面全部的特点,但至少会有一,二个。就算是伟大如周恩来,有时候难免有些优柔寡断和没有主见,当然,这种时候不多。         

造成双鱼座优柔寡断的原因很简单。因为同样一个选择,在一个射手看来,只需要考虑2样东西,但是在双鱼看来,却需要考虑10样东西,因为他想的实在是太多了。简单的说一句话,双鱼都会想到它会给周围的人带来多少种不同的影响,它会让人对自己有怎么样的看法,会不会造成误解。(虽然很多时候,双鱼会冲动的把一些话脱口而出)    

至于多疑,这点和自卑联系的比较紧密。虽然双鱼座能轻易的了解对方的意图,看透事情的真相,但是却往往不能坚持住自己的观点,这种不能坚持大多数是因为双鱼座自己不愿接受这个事实,也有很多时候是因为双鱼对自己不够自信。关于前一点,比较突出的一个例子是,双鱼座的女孩不到男孩子直截了当的告诉她,他不爱她了,女孩就总是还抱有一线希望,虽然女孩心里明白的很。    

懦弱呢?关于这点,和信仰联系在一起。你一定觉得很奇怪,懦弱和信仰又有什么关系呢?  信仰是种很可怕的力量,他可以让一个人做出平时不敢做的事情,拥有不该拥有的勇气,牺牲不该牺牲的东西。而双鱼恰恰是没有一丁点信仰的,就算有,也不过是为了给生活加一点调味剂,或是给自己找一个避难所。对于双鱼来说,自己能过舒适,安稳的日子,比什么都重要。富贵如浮云,最想的开这点的就是双鱼座了。至于爱国什么的,酒饱饭足的双鱼可以慷慨激昂,也会不惜重金施于,但是只是建立在自己有好日子过的前提下。     

接下来,可以解释下双鱼的懦弱了。   
只要能让自己和爱人平平安安,有什么不可以忍受的呢?什么尊严,什么气节,见鬼去吧。所以只要不把双鱼逼到绝境,你尽可以嘲弄双鱼的懦弱。每条鱼的忍受范围都不同,但一般都比正常人多那么一点点。但是如果你不小心让一条鱼觉得无路可走了,那么你真的要小心了。鱼可以践踏人间一切法律,无视所有道理,更不会考虑自己的尊严和人格。
你务必要相信这一点,虽然这种时候很少,但那只不过是因为上帝不想让人们经常看到地狱的惨状。   

双鱼的最大优点:感情    
与其说双鱼是个为爱情而活的星座,不如说双鱼是个为感情而活的星座。   
对于双鱼来说,世界上最重要的东西是感情,一条精神上满足的鱼,可以没有其他东西,就已经是最幸福的人(当然,绝大多数情况下,没有其他东西,很难精神上满足)。    

任何感情对于双鱼来说都是重要的,爱情很重要,但不见得会比亲情更重要,在双鱼的眼中. 对于鱼来说,感情是单纯的,是单独的。鱼可以原谅对方的一切,只要那个人是真心对他好的。你可以十恶不赦,可以吃喝嫖赌,可以之前是人尽可夫的妓女,可以是个卑鄙无耻的骗子,都可以原谅,只要鱼能确定你是真心的喜欢他,对他好。但是请注意一点,大部分的鱼都比你聪明,不要以为你的小伎俩可以骗到鱼,你是不是真心喜欢他,他比谁都清楚。    

对于一个男孩子> 来说,双鱼女孩能给你对于一个女孩子想要的一切,温柔,爱你不顾一切,可爱(很多时候是装的,鱼大多数是很聪明的),体贴.....     
对于一个女孩子来说,双鱼男孩....嗯.....看你的运气了,如果你遇到的鱼是个没有志气,不想做事,玩玩乐乐的鱼,而且他已经25岁左右了,那么好心的提醒你,还是尽早离开他吧。
除非你是个富婆,或者你只是找个情人(没有人比双鱼更适合做情人了:安全快乐而无副作用)。否则,你会经历世间最凄凉的婚姻和生活,阿门 
那么如果你遇到的鱼是有事业心,能上进,肯做事的鱼,或者干脆就是事业有成的鱼,那么真的是恭喜你,你是千万少女中最幸运的一个,再挑剔的女人也无法对一个有上进心有事业的鱼有更多的要求了。你可以得到世界上一切的温柔和快乐,包括用钱买的到的和用钱买不到的,鱼很乐意把他的一切奉献给他爱的人,看到他爱的人开心,他会更开心。大部分的鱼的'一切'仅仅只有感情,而没有物质,但是我们现在讨论的是最优秀的那种鱼,那种能随时把名望和财富送给你的鱼,现在你知道你有多幸运了吧。    

提到感情不得不提的:公平   
很奇怪吗?公平对于双鱼来说,是个很重要的单词。   
双鱼没有普遍意义上的价值观,是非观,你不能用这件事这样做是对的,那样做是错的来说服一个双鱼座。永远记住,鱼的世界里很少有对错。   
那么鱼又是怎么来处理他和别人(尤其是爱人的关系)呢?就是公平。如果鱼曾经有过十几,二十个女朋友,那么他就不会在意你以前有过多少个男朋友,如果鱼一个不小心跑出去玩了一夜情,那么你一夜情的时候,他也会选择无所谓。   
好吧,就算你的鱼纯情的一塌糊涂,你是他(她)的第一次,他也可以原谅你的曾经花心,一时花心,可能会的花心,只要你能用足够的关心和真心的喜欢弥补。鱼大致兑换了下你的关心(兑换比例只有天知道了,呵呵),如果觉得双方大致公平的(相对于他对于你的感情付出),那么他就无所谓,就会原谅你。    
所以和鱼相处是件很简单的事情,只要你能保证你给他的和他为你付出的差不多多,就可以了。至于伦理道德嘛...嗯,讲真的,鱼从来不是教条主义者。反过来,如果你让鱼觉得你对他的关心不够多,对他的爱不够多(不够多是指没有他给你的多),那么鱼会在痛苦之后,也相应的减少对你的关心和爱,不要怀疑,这方面,鱼比谁都表现的现实和斤斤计较。
    
感情中的完美主义  
鱼在意的东西很少,所以很不幸,鱼对于他在意的东西就是完美主义者的态度.   
对于鱼来说,完美的情人不是忠贞不二的情人,不是事业爱情兼顾的情人,也不是外形完美的情人。鱼要求的是'完美的爱'。
你可以不经常说我爱你,但是你说的时候,一定要是真心实意。
你可以很少陪他逛街,但是你陪的时候,一定要是真的开开心心。
你也可以对他说很少的情话,但是你要保证,你对别人说的情话更少,而且你对他说的是真心的话。对于鱼来说,欺骗和做作是最不可原谅的。
很多人以为简简单单的对鱼说几句我爱你,固定性的发些短信问候鱼,经常为鱼买些好东西就能让鱼觉得被爱了。真不幸,大部分鱼都聪明过了头,一般都能轻松辨别那些举动是真心的,那些不过是手段(如果你曾经用这些手段征服过双鱼女生,也别得意,只不过是双鱼女生比男生更难以拒绝别人而已)。
所以,请诚实一点对待鱼,爱他多少就给他多少,他也会给你同样多。这至少比他生你的气好的多,不是吗?    
双鱼真的浪漫吗?  
所有的星座解释都会说双鱼是浪漫的,但是所有和双鱼(特别是双鱼男生,一般浪漫都是指男生做的事情)接触过的人,都往往感觉不到双鱼的浪漫,到底是为什么呢?难道双鱼并不浪漫?

我给你个肯定的答案,双鱼绝对浪漫,他脑子里面的浪漫点子不仅包含了所有好莱坞大片的经典场景,还有更多他自己的原创镜头,他时不时的都在幻想浪漫的场面,一个鱼可能在他18的时候就开始想他30岁结婚的布置。        
那么为什么现实中是两样呢? 因为2点,自卑和善良。    
前一点很好理解,大部分的浪漫需要自信。很多时候,不是鱼不想浪漫,而是不好意思和没胆子那么做,你能理解是吧,呵呵。   
那么自信的鱼呢?为什么他也不浪漫?    
因为他没有遇到合适的人,因为他善良。    

双鱼的爱情大部分是有些被动的。鱼总是轻易的喜欢上一个女孩子(注意,我用的单词是喜欢),然后开始和这个女孩开始交往,然后十有八九,会发现这个女孩不是能给自己完美的爱的女孩(这是肯定的,遇到最合适自己的人哪有那么容易),鱼很现实的知道,他和这个女孩不可能有将来的,2个人能拥有只能是一段回忆。
那么对鱼来说,绝大部分的情话都会说不出口,因为鱼自己知道这些话都是骗人的,很多浪漫的举动做不出来,因为鱼不敢让女孩陷的太深,怕分手的那一天女孩太伤心。很多人说处女,金牛的人想的多,其实鱼想的并不比他们少,只不过犹犹豫豫又舍不得的鱼,就算明了的知道和女孩没有将来,也不会点破,只会静静的维持,享受拥有的每一天。但是这样的情况下,鱼的善良就让鱼忍住了很多浪漫的情话和行动。    

我这么说是不是显的鱼很高尚?呵呵,没有什么真正高尚的人。鱼能如此的为女孩着想,是因为这么做能让鱼觉得自己很伟大,有一种悲剧式的美感,鱼愿意让自己沉浸在这种自我的意淫中. 

当然,这样至少比不顾别人的死活,只图自己开心要好的多是不是?
所以还是应该为鱼们鼓鼓掌的。   
所以,如果有一天,你看到一条浪漫无比的鱼,不要怀疑,他已经认定你们有个美好的未来,他已经知道他不会给你太多的伤心了,那你还犹豫什么?上去拥抱你的幸福吧.    
结语:什么样是好的双鱼?      
双鱼有很多缺点,但是大多数都可以原谅。除了2条,懒惰和犹豫。    
而双鱼要成为一条好鱼,所需要的东西很简单.

事业   
其实不用去提醒鱼们其他的事情了,他们自己都能想明白。只需能保证鱼能稳步进行他们的事业就可以了.一旦鱼用心去赚钱了,那么他肯定能赚到钱。但是这一点很难,真的很难,如果有一天,你看到一条生龙活虎的鱼,千万不要放过,好好的捆住他,很有可能,他会带给你所有的梦想.
17 July 2009 0 comments

I Hate Secondhand Smoke



Smokers aren't the only ones being harmed by their habit. Secondhand smoke kills, too.

In the United States alone, each year it is responsible for: an estimated 35,000 deaths from heart disease in non-smokers who live with smokers.

Please...protect your children from the dangers of secondhand smoke by providing them with smoke free air to breathe. They depend on you.

Happy belated *WORLD NO TOBACCO DAY*. It's on 31st May 09 =)

Flower need water to bloom ; and we need fresh air to breath.

It's quite rude of smokers to subject the rest of us to their smells. Don't you think so?

They said, we have a right to smoke. And we said, we have a right not to breathe smoke just as much as they have the right to smoke it.

For those smokers: It is your own right to hurt yourself by smoking, but you don't have the right to hurt others' health by smoking..... Please go as far as you can to smoke, or, PLEASE STOP SMOKING !!!!

Can you die from secondhand smoke ? DEFINITELY MURDERING.

What's your reaction when you get annoyed by secondhand smoke?
A) walk out in silence
B) roll your eyes and hold your breath
C) curse the annoying one with some F - words inside your heart .. LoL
D) give them a bad scold
E) others and please state out (^__^)

Smokers, please just born a duty to put yourself out of our misery.

Whee~ its saturday. Hope everyone can have a freshy smoke - free weekend * Finger crossed *

Did you know that --> at 15 May, 2009 the Bulgarian government voted to ban the smoking in all enclosed public places including offices, bars, restaurants, and clubs. The ban is coming into effect on 1 June 2010. Congrats to all the Bulgarian.

Smokers : Go away man...you don't smoke, but allow others the small pursuit of happiness that they deserve. What say you?

We have no problem with being around smokers. What we have a problem with is when smokers have no problem putting an inconvience on other because of their habit.

Think twice before you sacrifice your health. Think twice for your loved one.

Sad~no matter where you turn when walking on the street there is all too often a cloud of second hand cigarette smoke that is near impossible to avoid.

Making others breathe 2ndhand smoke is akin to threatening their lives. Medically proven, right? There are laws against threatening to kill people, so there should be a law against smoking, such that anyone who smokes has to, by law, stay at least (a long way) away from anyone else who is not smoking, thereby making it inconvenient for them to smoke ANYWHERE in public. Not impossible, but just inconvenient. Anyone know how to make this happen?

Do you love him /her / your family enough to quit smoking for good? Or do you love them enough to stand with their smoking habit?

Secondhand smoke is not a battle between smokers and non smoker. It's a battle for public health - all of the public.

Have you lost a loved one to a secondhand smoke related illness?

Smoking....It is something that I cannot stand and cannot understand.

A 2 year old boy from He Bei province is smoking a cigarette! Can you believe that ?! The mother says she found no side effects nor respiratory disease on her son and thus never thought of letting him quit. What type of parent is this ? Poisoning her own child with nicotine?

There are a lot of people who I care for deeply...and they smoke. I know it's their choice. And in a strange way I do respect it...but it pains me to see them have such little regard for the health of their bodies.

We do not encourage smoking. But since both smokers and non-smokers are freedom loving people.... so lets start from some little respect for each other. Shall we?

It's a sin to kill or hurt someone.. Isn't smoking a sin.. to poison someone intentionally.. SMOKERS ARE THE DEVIL'S WORSHIPPER!! CANCER IS CREATION OF THE DEVIL THROUGH SIN... SO SMOKERS QUIT NOW OR SUFFER IN HELL... TRUE BELIEVER IN GODS DO NOT SMOKE, DRINK, GAMBLE, LUST, GREDDY, SELFISH...

In light of President Obama signing a bill to regulate tobacco and a hopeful new wave of awareness regarding tobacco, second-hand smoke and how tobacco is used and represented in the media and movies, we, the organizations below and the creative team of THE PACK would be grateful if you would seriously consider being a sponsor for this new powerful thought-provoking independent feature film and event so we can present in HOLLYWOOD for a week and be eligible for an Academy Award nomination, bringing more attention to the issue than we can all imagine.

The marketing director at American Cancer Society called "The Pack" next year's "Slumdog"!

In view of the recent emergence of A/H1N1 influenza worldwide, Hong Kong Department of Health (DH) urged smokers to quit the habit, as one of the effective preventive measures against influenza. "Research studies show a higher risk of influenza infections among smokers when compared with non-smokers," he said. "Also, the mortality rate of influenza among smokers is higher than that of non smokers."

Hey guys. How would you like to have the all expenses paid wedding of your dreams? All you have to do is be a groom and give up smoking in Saudi Arabia... =)

Should smoking be banned in the workplace? ......"It's not anti-smoker" ........"It's everything to do with protecting nonsmokers from contracting cancer against their will.

When we say "Ban Smoking", smokers will say unfair. When we say our lives are at their hands, they say we should just stay far away from them. When we say we dream of a smoking-free world, they say we are dreaming.

Did you know that two-thirds of the smoke from a burning cigarette is not even inhaled by the smoker?
It is released into the atmosphere where anyone in the area can inhale it.

Usually smokers think if they just smoke “to the side”, or when a driver smokes, he opens a window thinking this way the others will not inhale bad air. Unfortunately it is not so. Even cleaning air and ventilating buildings is not 100% effective.There is no safe level of exposure to secondhand smoke.

Stop now. Lung cancer is not a pleasant way to quit. You know that.

I say, people who smoke are one of the most selfish group on earth.
Imagine if your loved ones die because of secondhand smoke.
& by then only you realise you're one of the contributors to their deaths.
Imagine everytime you puff out the smoke & the people you care about are inhaling all the poison.
If you really care, you will know, you're killing them bit by bit.







All taken from I HATE SECONDHAND SMOKE GROUP.


25 June 2009 0 comments

分辨能力

告诉我,要怎样才能装若无其事? 要怎样才能狠下心,像你一样,一切都好像事不关己,都那么理所当然?
要我看着你自甘堕落,却没资格出声。。我该如何相信,一个月后,一切就可以好起来?
我没办法分辨,要从此当着不认识你,或眼看着你一直这样,哪个比较痛苦。。
刚才你那个样子,我真的觉得很厌恶。。可是,总是安慰自己,你会好起来的。。
但是,这个月要怎麽挨?才两天。。我好像被逼着要长大,要无人能敌的坚强。。
我分辨不出,要鼓起勇气离开你,或是相信你而继续熬下去,哪个比较痛苦。。
不管哪个都好,我好像都在自欺欺人。。
你一直在提醒我,我们什么都不是,可是你又忽冷忽热。。
那种很痛苦但又不能去问你心里在想什么的感觉,我还形容得出来。。又怎样?
我不知道,我几时开始,这么不理智。。只知道,痛的感觉总是来得比开心实在。。
所以就奋不顾身,豁出去地疯狂。。
我分辨不出来,要习惯一个人生活,还是拼命告诉自己,你不知道你在伤害我,哪个来得比较痛不欲生。。
我开始累了。。连诉苦都懒得。。没有人的职责是听我司空见惯的爱情伤心事。。
所以,就觉得越来越孤独。。还好我早就习惯了强颜欢笑。。
笑着笑着,就是真的了。。
希望痛着痛着,也能忘了。。那就好了。。
我再也分辨不出,要想象没有你的未来,还是要面对你一个月的冷酷,哪个会痛得比较刻苦铭心?

我决定就一直痛下去,直到我有勇气离开。。
再也分辨不出,是抱着希望我在你心目中会再次重要,比较不可能,还是要我忘记你,比较不可能。。

要认命吗,永远遇人不淑的女孩?
你睡过头了。。。。

02 June 2009 0 comments

100 Truths about Myself

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.


WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Plain water
2. Last phone call: Him
3. Last text message: Him
4. Last song you listened to: 兰亭序
5. Last time you cried: Last week after a phone call.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Yes
7. Been cheated on: Yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: Yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: Not drunk but threw up.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Brown
13. Grey
14. Soil Green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: Yes
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Lazy to count
23. How many kids do you want to have: 2
24. Do you have any pets: No
25. Do you want to change your name: Yes
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Sushi & movie with Ruban, simple birthday celebration with housemates, supper with Dek3 & Ooi Noo Yin, karaoke with Corner Lot gang.
27. What time did you wake up today: 9:05 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Went to someone's birthday party, drank & gamed, then drink at mamak.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Find a nice job with good pay & get rich.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: During CNY
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Money
32. What are you listening to right now: Fan spinning, people talking in drama.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: I don't know. Sensitive mode now.
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook
36. What's your real name: Lynda Leong Choi Foong
37. Nicknames: Lynda, Dalyn, Miao, JueJue, Nynda Neong, Everyday.
38. Relationship Status: IAR
39. Zodiac sign: Pisces
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Elementary?: SJK (C) Chung Hua
42. Middle School?: SMK Bintulu
43. High school/college?: UTAR
44. Hair colour: brownish red
45. Long or short: Shoulder length
46. Height: 156cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: No
48: What do you like about yourself?: Don't feel like telling
49. Piercings: 5
50. Tattoos: I wish
51. Righty or lefty: Lefty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: None
53. First piercing: When I was 15.
54. First best friend: P'ng Kah Khoon
55. First sport you joined: Badminton
56. First vacation: 6 years old. To Ipoh.
58. First pair of trainers: Don't remember.

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: No
60. Drinking: No
61. I'm about to: sleep
62. Listening to: Songs
63. Waiting on: my salary to be deposited
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: Yes
65. Get Married?: Yes
66. Career?: Translator, missionary work, PR, Sales, Education.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Lips
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: No
77. Drank hard liquor: Yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes
79. Sex on first date: No
80. Broken someone's heart: Hell yea!
82. Been arrested: No
83. Turned someone down: Yes!
84. Cried when someone died: Of course!
85. Fallen for a friend?: Minor crush

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: Yes
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: No
91. Kiss on the first date: Yes
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: Yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: As in in a relationship? No, besides that, Yes.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Far enough to see dinosaurs, to see Pharaoh, to see Adam & Eve, to see the emperors of China, to see Old England & America.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Christmas
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: NO
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Arrr, bugger..
31 May 2009 2 comments

Of Age, Period And Time

The clock is ticking, every second nearing the dawn of a new semester.
I always, won't let myself to get overexcited or overly down when having to face this sort of matters.
Now, my mood is on & off feeling down & getting neutral again, for no reason.
Then I would tell myself, it's just like any other day. No big deal at all.
Maybe it's the weather. It's conveniently extremely hot.
Spare you the rant.

These few months, is the period I feel most changes happened around me.
I feel so deeply, it's a turning point for everything.
That it's time for things to change, move on for the better or worse, but definitely for the sake of planting more & more maturity in me.

I still love going home.
Everytime I go back, there must be something at home that has been changed, replaced or added.
Now, my family & I are all very alert & scared of thieves, scared when we hear sounds from downstairs.
And our meals now are mostly vegetables & fish. I actually don't mind, because my mum is a great cook. 

Carol looks like a big girl now. Compared to the 14-year-old me, she's simpler, happier, content & more matured. I'm grateful, that she did not follow my footsteps.
Selfishly, I wish she'll never grow up. I mean, I wish we can still interact with each other using the same way. That our bond and telepathy will never die out.
She's still my baby sister. So needy of my care, help & teasing. :p
At home, I'm always downstairs watching series, & she would be doing homework upstairs & then she'll go to the stairs & call for me, bugging me to go up & sleep with her.
I normally said okay, then I wouldn't go up. Out of tiredness, she would already be sleeping tightly when I finally went up.

One night, I was doing the same thing as usual, when her sleeping time arrived, my mental alarm told me something was not right as she didn't call for me. ( That was the 1st night I was downstairs, spent most time being upstairs this holiday)

So I off my laptop, went up & checked her out, she was already sleeping.
& so I was telling myself, she's grown up, she doesn't need me anymore.
Feeling a bit disappointed, but grateful too.
The next day, she told me, she did call for me, but I didn't hear her. Apparently, she was sick & she lost her voice, so I couldn't hear when she was trying her best to call me. She's still my little sis after all, but can't help thinking that she'll grow up one day. It's okay, I'll deal with that.
Of course, my brother is kind of jealous that I'm closer with her than him.
Well, we can laugh for hours non stop & do silly things every now & then.

This semester, we're moving to PD block for the final year. 
Back to the one I had my foundation. It, of course, won't feel the same anymore.
No more Jaya1, & all, harder to get transportation & printing facilities.
The existence of elevators and nicer mamak stalls doesn't comfort me at all.
Looyin has moved out from K3E.
We can talk for hours starting from the tiniest insignificant topic & then extend endlessly.
We share everything together, sing, listening to songs, movies, series, problems, boyfriend issues..haha~
Who else would do all these with me?
Who else would do these as good as you do?
But I'm moving on! But not forgetting you, don't worry..haha~
Just accepting changes & changing with the changes with no alternatives at all.
But I'm happy. Content that I'm learning.

All the questions about the future, all the shoes awaiting, all the movies I'm going to miss out because of this crazy semester coming.
All the doubts of my career, all the uncertainties of stay or leave. 
I'm being shown a way now..a way that I don't have to choose between God & career. 

The favourite church has evolved too...getting better at some areas, but the system is still pretty much flawed and the heart of the followers are not burning as they're supposed to. Sound deadly when singing & praising, same old prayer speech for a decade. Can strongly sense that because some do not like to change, & those who can change do not bother to engage. 
It's discouraging to see all these. That the church does not grow at the supposed rate with the age & time.

When the world is dying & I'm part of the reason, I let my guilt be overwhelmed by my self pleasure. & I was thinking, so what? We're going to die eventually. It's just a matter of time.
I'm not challenging my limits as a part of me still likes to be in the comfort zone.
I'm telling myself I'll change, just give me some time.

And so, all the changes are happening.
Along with Age, Period & Time....

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Tagged & Back

It's been a month...I just got over my no-blogging period...
And....I'm back to join the force!!! Haha~
Anyway, I would still be in my no-blogging mood if it's not for Adeline who tagged me. *grin*
Don't get me wrong if you think I'm overly excited because class is starting tomorrow.
To make myself totally clear, I'm absolutely neutral.
OKAY, save this for later.
Remember, I'm tagged.

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
Forehead.

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
Very complicated, I lost track of time, forgot what time I slept last night, the temperature was high, I woke up feeling wrong.

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
My sister.

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
At times, but I've gotten real much better.

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
Yes.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
Totally.

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
Honestly? Not only one.

8. What does your last text message say ?
A birthday gathering invitation from Adeline.

9. What are you thinking right now ?
Whether I should go to Adeline's birthday celebration or not..haha~
It's not that I don't want to go, I'll tell you tomorrow k~

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
Hmm, maybe....

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
2.50 a.m.

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
My mum bought it in Sabah..

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
More than one. Not in that sense k..just planning ahead of stuffs, that's why many people are circling in my mind now...

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
Still Adeline...gosh, it's been like so long since I answered no. 8...

I can't do the rest anymore...no one to tag.
That's all, I guess.

09 May 2009 0 comments

Scattered Thoughts

I've been waiting for the mood to brew for me to write this post.
Have a strong feeling I'll end up finishing this post only tomorrow.
A bunch of things happened in this two weeks...
Hmm, let's see, first & foremost, the terrifying final exam..
I managed to survive all those hot days, where the room degree is equivalent to body temperature. & all those fake signs of rain, which gave me false hope.
Depressing...especially during exam..everyone has not been attentive to study..
Second, party by the poolside, ooi noo yin moving out *sob*, end of exam, X men: Wolverine (just for Hugh Jackman, not really interested in knowing how X men were formed.), & then all those sleepless nights started, I'm always the one who claps million beats slower. 
Always suffering from post - effects.
& the fact that I remember my dreams, for many years ever since some time back in secondary, I thought I'm one of those who never dreams. Thought maybe it's because I'm care-free.
Until I acquired the fact that everyone dreams every night.
So I know I don't remember my dreams. Which still doesn't change my mind of the indication.
It's relieving to know that my mind doesn't bother about all those upsetting matters.
Ignoring the thought that I might be in denial or some sort.
So these few nights, I started to remember my dreams, which is definitely not a good sign for me, of course...but still ignoring...as long as I don't get insomnia out of it.

25 April 2009 0 comments

What's with Your Birthday?

Looyin sent me this, she said it's very accurate, hmm...depends on individuals.
So just doing this for fun, only for fun okay. & only for those who can read chinese, Sorry!


你想了解你的 生日密碼 嗎?   點一下下面的日期,會有意想不到的結果喔!
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