Long Gone

I'm back, after exactly 2 months. Had to refresh my mind on what font I have been using.
Done nothing exciting lately.
Just movies, TV series, sleep, chats, apps, articles. Lots of them.
Goosh, I don't know where to start.


Last weekend was the worst weekend this year & last year.
It's funny how you never get those "The Worst Day of My Life" shit anymore as you grow up.
Guess it's nice to get them once in a while.
Our food didn't come, he had to call the supervisor because we've asked for our food 3 times but no one got back to us.
Didn't have a satisfying Friday after work dinner.
Gone for Transformers on Saturday night. Showtime got delayed by half an hour (Definitely not something GSC would do).


Some parents these days are totally uncivilised & idiotic.
Bringing months old baby to watch Transformers? And what? Expecting it not to cry at the first 5 minutes? What the heck??!
Letting the sons shout through the whole movie without stopping them?
Not switching off the mobile no matter how many times it has rung?
Anyway, I still managed to enjoy the movie, believe it or not.


Later that night, Elizabeth whataspped me, telling me that Sidney has passed away that evening.
I'm still in disbelief now. & his cause of death is still a myth. Depression, brain tumour, some virus attack.
You know, it's really hard to make colleagues your friends. Whom you actually interact a lot outside work life & constantly catch up with each other, for of course, a period of time.


Sidney, I've missed you. I should have called when I had that thought in mind.
I don't know what happened but I prayed that you're in better place.
He's a special guy. I don't think I'll ever meet someone like him, or even close to him.
He's always so strong opinionated & telling you that you've done absolutely the right thing when you're not sure. 
We used to walk to work together, buy breakfast together.
Miss you calling me shortie, with your Brit accent.


Everytime this thing with friends dying happens, it serves a greater purpose to just keep reminding you that you have to treasure people around you more.
Show affection, show care, show who you really are & those who don't accept you, screw them.
While I'm stuck with my job, it makes me appreciate my Salmatians more.
The main reason why I think my job is crappy is all these crappy people with no life. I'm a people person (don't take it in the sense that I'm trying to say I'm friendly). What I'm trying to say is I don't like when my colleagues keep playing politics & nag like 40 year old housewives. Anyway, I've come to a point where I have, most of the time, accepted that they are just too pathetic that they have nothing better to do than picking on people.
Therefore, it just keeps knocking me in my head that I have to be different. From them.
Once it hits 5:30 pm, they are out of my sight & mind.


Okay, back to friend stuffs.
I've made it a habit especially ever since I've graduated that whenever I'm free & in the mood, I'll browse through my phones to look for a friend to call & catch up with. I want to stay in touch & not lose the friendships we've created. Right, Basil? So that there will be no regrets. 


Of course, you will still not be able to avoid lines like "I wished I was a better friend." You would never be up to your standard because you'll keep asking yourself why I didn't do this when someone is gone.


So, to those people who stop answering my calls, actually there's just this one person, I would like to let you know that, I've been missing you. I would still call you one of these days & I don't know why you suddenly decided to vanish yourself. But I might give up hope one day.
So, if you want to continue doing this, that's fine with me.


Good night, peeps! To no regrets, max, cheers!